Before It's Too Late

Agent Sidelines

I feel numb.I want to open my eyes but refuse.Afraid of what I am going to see and remember.The last thing I remember is running accross the road when I saw flashing head lights and a car approaching me.My vision started to fade and I could not move.My body is stiff as a statue.I feel aching between my legs.
    All I can hear are familiar voices.
Doctor Eden:She will be fine as long as she takes her medicine and stays at home for a few days.Nothing is injured thankfully,although she does have a slight memory loss.She might not remember what happend before the accident but she can remember family members,loved ones and friends.
Clarissa(My mom):Thankyou,doctor.

   I open my eyes slowly.My wrist hurts and I know why.I can see tubes attached to my wrist and nostrils."Mom?Where am I?," I ask shakily.I dont move to not cause any more pain."You are in the hospital dear,we were so worried about you when Annie called us saying you got hit by a car." mom says looking worried.I can tell by the way she rubs my hand gently.My head hurts for trying to recall my previous activities before the accident.I thought having slight amnesia could happen in movies.Well turns out I was wrong.
   "Mom,when can i go home?I want to see prince." I say.The worried look in my parents eyes just puts me in a terrible place.
    I dont want them to see me as a weekling.I want to stay strong and fearless for them.Unfortunately,in my condition it is not the right time.
    She strokes my long brown hair and lightly kisses the top of my head.
    "The doctor says you will be checked out next week.Don't your worry." she says calmly.I can see that she doesnt want me to worry,by the fact that I just heard everything they talked about with the doctor.
   Maybe she doesnt want me to remember so soon.
   
    Soon after that,my dad went home after he took my mom out to dinner.My mom is staying with me for the night.The nurses gave her a blanket and pillow to sleep on the couch.I felt bad for her and I wanted her to go home and rest but she refused.
    She fell asleel on the couch a few minutes later.She seems so peaceful in her sleep.I drifted off to sleep myself.I dreamt about the car accident and how I felt like it was on purpose,but who knows.
  
    The next morning,Annie and Joey came into my room and brought me flowers.By this time I only remembered their names but not who they were.
     "Hi,Maddie.Remember me?I'm Joey.We've known each other since kindergarden-" Joey says cheerfully.I remember how he is always bubbly and positive."and I'm Annie.Your BFFL since preschool.We used to love watching CSI together remember?," Annie says puzzled.I can see the worrieness through her eyes and how sorry she is.Boy,we must be really close.
    "Hi,I remember you two.Yeah,I miss CSI and yeah I remember you used to pee in class whenever you fail a pop quiz Joey." I reply still trying not to move.My mind might be healed but the rest of me NO WAY.
     We talked for like an hour and I just feel so reconnected with them.I started to remember how fun they are."Well,there is one more thing you need to know-" Joey pauses while looking at Annie.He reaches for her hand and rubs it gently."-we are officially dating!," he continues raising their hands.I dont reply to this as I am still in shock.What?!Date?I thought they hated each other..
     Then,something changed within me.I remember having a major crush on Joey since pre-school.I wanted to tell him in high school but than he started having relationships that lasted for only 2 weeks.After hearing this,makes me want to scream and shout!Although,since they are together I dont want to get in their way so looks like I will have to push these feelings at the back of my head.
    "Maddie?Madd's-you okay?," Annie snaps her fingers.I snap out of my trance and I answer hesitantly."Oh,I-I'm fine." I smile sheepishly.What a dumb thing to say!?
      That night,after they went home I was finally alone.Made me think about all the things I remember.Aspecially my feelings for Joey.