Couples Retreat|Odell Beckham Fan Fic|

~6~

So far it's been five days and each day has gone bad. In therapy we barely talk. We lose all the team building exercises and in group discussion Erica just stares at me. Her being here makes this a thousand times worst. I've thought about leaving but that would just make me look weak and let her know she still has control over me.

I walk through the breakfast bar sat up in the lounge and there she was. She walk up to me as I grabbed two strips of turkey bacon.

"Turkey bacon huh?" She tried to make conversation which I denied. "You know you can talk to me. What happened between us is in the past. I've forgiven you why can't you do the same" she mentioned to me. "I'll never forgive someone as manipulative as you Erica. Now go away don't you have someone else here to fuck with" she giggled. "Del baby you'll come around trust me"she ran her hand down my back before walking away which gave me chills.

I grabbed my plate ate breakfast before going to therapy.

"Glad to see both of you on time" Dr.Gray said.

He went on to say"Now today we're going to talk about you guy's childhoods Odell you first".

I cleared my throat then said " I was a very athletic kid. My parents wanted me to in every sport. I played baseball,ran track,played soccer,and basketball. But I only really was my best at football. As soon as my parents realized I was good they invested their time into making me the man I am today" I responded.

"So football would you say that it's your passion?"

"I don't really know. I don't know the feeling of passion but I think football might be the closet thing I have to passion. It's pretty much all I know and the only thing I can't mess up" Dr.Gray wrote something down.

"Fear of failure is something we all have. We fear going out to explore when we're stuck in the comfort of settling. Even though your happiest with your football career maybe you need something else to get you from fearing that you'll make a mistake" Dr gray told me after writing down notes. In a way he was right I did settle for what was given to me and I was afraid of going out to get what I want.

"So talk about your childhood Jhene"

"I have a big family. I was always the one that wanted to get out and explore and see the world. My brother and I always would play explorers together. We we're so close more like best friends than siblings. Music was always my passion. I loved to sing since I was in diapers. I started performing for background vocals for groups like B2k. That's how I met my daughter's father. I grew up in the industry basically" she responded. She look bothered by some reason.

"What happened to your brother?" Dr. Gray asked. You could tell he hit a nerve because she looked somewhat bothered.

"Miyagi was diagnosed with cancer. Doctor's said that it could be too late and they were gonna try to their best.And on July 19, 2012 he passed away" she looked uncomfortable.

"How did it make you feel?"

"I felt like part of me was taken away. We followed each other foot by foot as kids. He's the person that I told everything to. He protected me and taught me to be strong. I just felt so bad that there was no way I could stop it from happening. I did my best to encourage him to get through it. I made him a song just trying to encourage him to not give up. He listened to it before he died. That's one lost that was hard for me to cope with" she looked at the ground as one tear dripped down her cheek. I started to feel something for her it was something that I've never felt. I actually had empathy for someone for once. I knew I would be no good at trying to comfort her so I just observed while keeping my mouth shut. 

Dr. Gray handed her a tissue as she wiped her tear away. "It's okay to still feel grief for someone whose so close to you".

I  pat her back not realizing what I was doing.

After therapy she wanted to be alone in the room. Her not being with me was worse than her being with me. I was constantly around couples and I couldn't stop thinking about the way she left me.

"Where's Jhene?" Robyn asked me.  I replied by saying "She's in our room therapy made her kind of upset". "Why are you still here go comfort her." 

"That's the thing I don't know how I think I'll just make her feel worse" I scratched the back of my neck.

"Just try to take her mind off the pain. Now go to her".

With that I went back to our room. I stopped on the way up to grab us something to eat. I knocked on the door and she admittedly answered. She was standing there her makeup running down her cheeks. Her hair looked frizzy probably from her sleeping on it. She was wearing just a robe which was a turn on but I avoided my attraction.

"Hey I um.." she hugged me tightly. 

"What's that for?" I asked unsure why she was hugging me.

"Despite my feelings about you I just needed a hug" I ran a piece of hair behind her ear. "Look um can we talk for a second" she nodded then let go. We both sat on the bed to talk to one another. 

"So I think I should just leave. I mean talking about personal things isn't that easy. As you can tell by today I'm just not ready" she said with tears still running down her cheeks

"No you can't just.." I stopped then thought of the perfect words to say.

"In therapy today I felt terrible knowing that you were hurting. I don't know why I couldn't do this then but I might as well do it now. I lost my friend Tony in a car accident.It was a head on collison and he fleww through the windsheild. I was crushed when he died and I get what you mean by losing someone whose close to you. Your brother would be proud of you. You're a star and your so tough and strong. You can express your feelings and I can't. You have to stay or you'll be the weak one" she smiled. We hugged again this time her robe exposed a little more of her. I looked down at her exposed chest that wasn't too bad looking. I guess she noticed because she pushed me off. After pushing me she yelled "you pervert" with a laugh. "Sorry I'm just a man you know I have my needs" we both were laughing. 

"I'm going to try to get some shut eye night" Jhene laid down in bed and almost instantly fell asleep. I got out of the bed then started getting ready for bed. I took off my pants first followed by my shirt. My back was towards Jhene and I could feel her staring at my back.

"Now who's the pervert" I turned around and noticed she was still up.

"Sorry I'm a woman and I have my needs too" she winked at me.

"Are you flirting with me Ms.Aiko?" I asked sarcastically.

"Nope,just remaining entertained. Good night Odell"

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