Decisions

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K.C.'s POV
When Grayson finally let me pee, I was a little worried because there was blood on the sink still but the lights were down because as he sounded he was probably asleep and remembered to do his 'night routine' and his eyes weren't adjusted to the light so he turned them down. That's the biggest reason why I have the turn down lights in all the rooms. So I'm not that worried, I'm more relieved that I finally got to pee!

But I'm walking out beat red still after I gawked over Grayson Dolan flexing in my bathroom. I though and said to myself well wanting to say to the sults at my school 'Haha bitches he bullies me and would rather flex in my house then in your ratchet asses!'

Wait... that's right even if he acts nice here he still bullies me at school and out of school around other people. But the real question is why doesn't he bully me when he's alone?  Nor does Ethan. But together they do. They confuse  me so whatever one more year then I don't have to see them ever again!

My thoughts run wild all the time. So by now I'm in my bed laying down before I realize what I'm doing. So I do what any normal person would do I went on my phone.

I was scrolling through Instagram and saw something that caught my eye. It was a fan page for the twins. A cute page with like 8k followers on one of the recent posts was a picture of me and them. I remember that, we were at the beach. That was fun, that's when we were friends I miss that.

I started to think of all our good memories together then the bad ones. I was crying. I miss being their friends. What happened! I all know is when my dad left when I was in 5th grade I was distant and sad then they left and I got depressed.... I'm still depressed.

I started thinking and thinking and it got to me, so I went to the bathroom and cried more. Finally it got to me so bad I forgot I had people over so I cried louder as I cut my wrists deep. I thought about the words Grayson and Ethan and so many others have said to me.

I heard Grayson get up and remembered they were here, he was always a light sleeper damn it. I locked the door stopped crying and started cleaning up the blood but my wrists were still bloody so I just put gauze around them and threw on a sweater from the dirty laundry.

I walked out of the bathroom quiet and ran to my room. I wanted to look at the post again. I know I know that sounds crazy I just cut after seeing it but when I read the caption said Grayson commented I wanted to see what he said, most likely something bad about me. It also said 'that should be me' and frankly I wish it was!

It said.... Wait this can't be right! What? Was he hacked? It said ... Miss her she was like my best friend. Umm what? Why would he say he missed me. This confuses me more about them.   Ugh. Whatever. I liked that picture and got up again.

I went back to the bathroom to change the gauze before I fell asleep. And of course as I walked out I ran into Grayson.

"Sorry" he said sleepy like.

"No it's fine it was me" I said quickly trying to get to my room fast.

"Where you goin?"

"Back to bed" I said even faster.

"Oh well can I join, not in a weird way but your couch is uncomfortable" he asked me.

"Ummm, no" I chuckled.

"Please K.C. I have a lax game tomorrow"

"I would to if I didn't have a concussion" I ended that conversation and shut my door. I heard him sigh out of regret but that doesn't change anything.