Flight

The issues

It's not like I'm the only person in the entire world who has issues with life but honestly how much can a person take?
I think I'm starting to believe in the theory of "Emotional pain is worse than Physical pain."
Firstly, listening to everything your parents say turns to be true when you so desperately don't want it to and next choosing to leave the years of childhood in which everything seemed Fine with the amazing people around called friends..
Well, that lasted Only for a while..
The moment I walked out of the "Best" school for me I ended my future.
That's what everyone else thought..
I was the only one to say.. "well I'm done here.." because the fake nature of the people was worse than multiple surgeries gone bad on a lady.. And people here includes the same friends..
Well they wanted to cling onto for a while.. The moment they smelled trouble they ran the other direction..
Leaving good old me to have trust issues..
And with the parents.. Let's just say, it's hard if you've not been close with them since you were a child.. And then if they force their decisions down your throat using emotions..  Ah the guilt hits you so hard that you fall for it..
Leading to doubting yourself...
As if trust issues weren't enough..
Now welcome migraines, insecurity and God knows what else that's  hidden deep within the dark walls that seem invisible to the naked eye.

"I don't get why you want to leave! It's so stupid! You think home isn't good enough for your talents, is it?" Lorraine says hitting the table with her hands out of exasperation "You've always spent most of the money.. Always.. Expensive clothes, going out with those stupid stuck up friends of yours, why do you now want to head abroad and make us spend more money? Do you realise you have a brother as well whom your Dad and I also need to take care of?"
"Look Mom" Samyrah says," even I can talk and lash out my pent up anger but I'm not. I'm sorry for asking for clothes that turned out to be expensive than a budget you were on, or for hanging out with friends thinking we would last together till we all have children probably.. I was stupid. But now I need you to let me be.. I've studied my ass off this year Only to get accepted into a University abroad and luckily I got through. Just let me go.. It's just one year Afterall,  just help me this one time more by sending me there,  this is the last And final thing.. I'm asking for you to do.. Then I'll handle myself once I know the where and how's of life there.. Then I'll try and repay the money you've spent on me in all these years"
"You are pathetically adamant" Lorraine shouts.
"Hey I just want to do ny masters in L.A And try getting a job there, if I don't get one there I'll be back here.. You get to boast to all your friends that your daughter just came back from America, look at the perks for a while" Samyrah says with a shrug.

// Hi
This is an insight to the issues or let's say problems running around in Samyrah's head
I hoped you enjoyed reading this bit