A few days ago, I was reading Ensnared by A.G Howard. I found one quote that has been in the back of my mind ever since.
It took losing my mind to gain my perspective
Then, it hit me last night while I was trying to fall asleep. The quote resonated with me, because of how I connect it to my growth as a person.
I'm not trying to offend anyone dealing with mental health problems, believe me, I've had my fair share of struggles in that area. And while that has shaped me as a person. That is not the whole reason why it means so much to me.
To become who I am now, I had to lose who I once was.
That person was me, going into middle school. Throughout elementary school, I was bullied relentlessly. Treated like a disease, something to be avoided at all costs.
I emerged from those years in a total state of apathy. One that I could not get out of for a good part of that year.
Then something snapped and I realized what was wrong. I had allowed myself to be shaped by others, and not by my true self. And if I wanted to change, the person I was at the moment would have to go.
I was tired of hiding, tired of apologizing.
And so, I lost myself, and then starting trying to find myself once more. Its been a long journey, one I am still on today.
But I know God will be there with me every step of the way.
