I fucking love this person but I think we're slipping apart it hurts to think about it.But you know what? The truth hurts and stings but it will never go away. I feel that he just doesn't care anymore that the only reason he wants to talk to me is because he is forcibly attached to me but eh I might be wrong. Haha I'm sorry I mistook you for my therapist,back to this seemingly amazing fairytale. I want to meet him so bad extremely bad that I can just think myself into a panic attack. When I meet him I'm never letting go,not like fucking rose did when she said "I'll never let go" dumb hoe, let go and lied. As I said "none of your fucking business" plays guitar and sings so amazingly ITS SO Adrkable. He is just an Amazing Person all around he's like a therapist to everyone and will help anyone and everyone with anything, without judgment. It takes a big tole on him he gets too attached and breaks down when the person he was helping gets worse, I don't blame him I'm the same way. He hates himself and I always think "I envy him so much why can't he see what I sees and what almost everyone else that knows and loves him sees?" He's so perfect and amazing. I write things about him all the time for example
" how can one person have such a big impact on my life?, I was getting lost in bad habits I had scars all over my legs a death wish on my mind, but you saved me from drowning in my own head. You etched kind words in my mind.you let me get attached to you and you didn't hurt me like everyone in the past did. You took time out of your own life to make sure mine was bearable and I can't thank you enough. I envy of can see beauty in things lost in oblivion it takes a amazing person to see beauty in the less appealing. When I say you're perfect I really do mean that cupcake with all of my heart. I hope you will always be my my moon, my stars and my whole damn SKY"
Well now you know his name it's cupcake. I guess that'll be his name throughout the rest of this disarray shit I call a story. Seeing his face when I FaceTime him just makes me question everything I know. Like how can someone I love so much live so far,yeah yeah I know you may be saying "well Tozzie or whoever the hell you are sadness is about not being with people you love and sometimes you have to deal with it" if you asked that which you probably didn't but I'm still going to answer the question I basically asked myself "well how can something making me so sad be lifting me up at the same time" this whole thing with cupcake just has me disproving things happen for a reason. Why would someone I love be kept away from me?
"Well Idk whoever the hell you are but please stop asking questions and get back to this shit you wrote"
