THE NIGHT HE STOLE IT

Chapter 19

What happened six years ago

Alex's POV

Part 2

(This chapter contains some matured scenes not suitable for very young readers. Please be advised to skip this chapter if you're under sixteen, or if you find sexy scenes uncomfortable. Thank you.)

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I knew her lips are soft for she would always kiss my cheek when she's thankful. But I never thought it would feel this great. It's warm, silky, and so tender I suddenly didn't want to let go.

Small frame, flowery scent, smooth skin, soft to touch... Definitely different from Carl.

Wari akong nagising nang maalala ko si Carl. What am I doing? This is wrong!

Kumalas ako at marahang bumangon ngunit nakakapit pala siya ng mahigpit sa sleeve ng polo shirt ko.

"Don't leave..." Nagsimula na naman siyang umiyak.

How can I? Nais kong itanong pati na sa sarili ko.

I knew she's in pain at that moment and she needed someone who could understand that pain. She had to feel secured and loved. And I know, si Jeff ang kailangan niya. Hindi siya matatahimik hangga't hindi siya ma-assure na may halaga pa siya.

Right that moment, si Jeff ang iniisip niya.

Hell! If I have to pretend I'm Jeff, so be it! If that can help ease her pain, then I'll hug her till she finally settles down to sleep tonight.

Humiga ako sa tabi niya at niyakap siya. I kissed her forehead. She snuggled closer to me then reached up to kiss my lips again.

My God! I'm losing my sanity...

And before I knew it, I was kissing her back. Until I couldn't control myself anymore. The animal inside me woke up and got so fired up, I found it hard to stop. Moments later, we're both naked.

Sure I've done it with Carl, but never with a girl. Besides, I was always on the receiving end...

Can I really do this?

Well, I have watched it on the internet. I know the basics.

When I felt her readiness, I started to push into her. It was tight and so warm. Very different from a hand. The excitement and the new feel was overwhelming I wasn't able to stop my rushing desire, I exploded, causing me to drive deeper into her. But as I pushed further, releasing my desire, I felt something inside her snapped. That's when I realized it was her first time...

I froze. Crap! Crap! Crap!

How was it her first time? She went for an overnight stay with Jeff sa Baguio at sa Tagaytay. Paanong walang nangyari do'n?

I wanted to ask her but she was already asleep. Tinulugan ako ng babaeng lasing na walang kamalay-malay sa mga pangyayari at walang kaalam-alam sa kalituhan ko ngayon.

What should I do? What should I tell her if she'd ask me? How should I explain my actions? And will she forgive me?

Impossible!

The future scene played on my mind. Si Vanessa, luhaan at sumisigaw...

How dare you! Alam mong lasing ako pero pinagsamantalahan mo ako! Instead of becoming a friend that I can rely on, you became a wolf and devoured me! Layuan mo ako! Rapist!

Rapist...

Kasusuklaman niya ako, ipapakulong, isusumpa. Hindi niya ako mapapatawad.

Agad akong nagbihis at naglakad pauwi. Malayo ang bahay, pero nilakad ko lang. I wasn't thinking of the distance, nor the danger a quiet night might offer in these deserted streets. Nakarating ako ng bahay still unable to calm down.

What should I do? I don't want her to hate me... Tears started to fall, but it's too late now. Kahit ano pang gawin kong pagsisisi, I can never give it back to her.

What should I do?

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Maliwanag na sa labas but I couldn't sleep, so kinumusta ko siya through text. Nang walang sagot after a few minutes, napraning ako. Baka may ginawa na siyang masama sa sarili niya. I texted again.

Baka naman tulog pa, na isip ko rin. Kasi, kung gising na siya, hindi pwedeng hindi siya magwala. At siguradong ako ang unang makakarinig ng pagwawala niya.

Paano ko naman natitiyak na hindi siya galit sa akin? Na si Jeff nga ang inaakala niyang kasama niya kagabi? But if she realized it was me, she should have stopped me.

I sent the last text and waited... till I fell asleep.

I woke up with a start. Bakit ba ako nakatulog? Nang tingnan ko ang phone ko, may message. Kinakabahang binuksan ko 'yon...

Gutom na ako... Two-piece chicken naman d'yan.

Matagal akong napatitig sa message niya. Did I miss the rantings? Hindi ba pumasok ang iba pa niyang mga text messages? Nasa'n na 'yong panic? Nasa'n ang depression? Was she okay with what happened?

Wait, gutom na raw siya. I got to come over and make sure she's fine. Two-piece chicken won't do. She needs something nutritious.

Pagdating ko, tulog na naman siya. Nagpalit siya ng beddings. I noticed naging malinis ang bahay, some things were missing. Then I realized, ang mga souvenirs at mementos na galing kay Jeff which were proudly displayed sa wall at sa dresser, wala na. Pati ang pictures nila ni Jeff sa mga picture frames, wala na rin.

Nilapitan ko siya at tinitigan. May bahid pa ng luha ang mga mata niya. Natulog siyang umiiyak? Pinilipit ng konsensiya ang puso ko. The longer I stared at her sleeping face, the more I wanted to hug and cry with her.

Before I could do something foolish, tinungo ko na ang kitchen upang makapagluto. I'm sure hindi pa siya nakapag-almusal. It's already lunchtime.

Nang magising siya, inasikaso ko siya at inobserbahan. She's trying her best to hide it. Maybe, she really loathed it that even talking about it is unacceptable. Kung kailan naman gusto ko nang umamin ng kasalanan ko at humingi ng tawad sa kanya.

What should I do?

Maybe, I'll just wait for the right time and confess. I should always stay beside her and wait for the right time. I hope she'll forgive me and hear me out.

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(End of Alex's POV. Next chapter, balik tayo kay Vanessa.)