Hope, there is always hope for Malec.

A time where Magnus almost gives up on loving Alec.

Magnus had lived for at least 400 years; he had loved and lost countless times. He had been heartbroken and close to death, he had experienced torture, but nothing ever came close to this. This torture was deeper than anything, it was torture only visible to himself; the torture of loving a mortal, a mortal who will eventual age and die, who would leave him. 

This he had experienced before but with Alexander it was completely different. They had only known each other for a month, and had only gone out on 2 official dates. They had discussed the fact about Magnus's immortality before they became an official item. They had agreed to ignore that huge difference, because they both deserved to be happy for the moment. Magnus knew it was unfair; unfair to Alec and to himself. Not one day went were he did not face that problem, but he thought he could live with it as long as Alec was by his side. He had fallen so hard for this 18 years old shadowhunter. Alec had found the key to his heart and unlocked it by the first meeting. 

Magnus had never felt so open, exposed, vulnerable, when Alec was around. Many times he felt ashamed of how a powerful high warlock, could be so naïve, so weak, so utterly in another persons hands. He would be embarrassed of how happy he'd be when Alec just looked at him, or just spoke to him, even if the subject was of the clave, or anything but there new relationship. The affection for the lightwood boy had instantly hit the level of love; deep uncontrolled love, but unfortunately the feeling of love was only on his side. Alec was very quiet, introverted, never reviled any feelings for him the only hint he got was the kiss at the weeding, but Magnus would always say that Alec was just making a statement to the world that he was gay, it wasn't actually directed towards their "relationship".

Magnus's days were all busy, with finding Valentine, helping the Shadowhunters, with clients, he always seemed completely exhausted coming home during the evenings. Though the last couple of night was different, Alec had stayed over; they had enjoyed each other's company, laughed, talked, hugged and kissed. Magnus felt over the moon, he never thought he would ever find this kind of happiness. Magnus just observed and listened to this wonderful happy man sitting before him. He had never seen Alexander smile so bright before, he had never seen him open up, exposing himself, letting his guard down before. It made Magnus's heart fill with joy and clench with sadness, knowing that it would never last.

Magnus's phone rang, and he told Alexander that he had to answer, it could be a client.

"Hi"

"MAGNUS!!!, IS IT YOU" it was a woman's voice.

"Yes, its me Catherina, is everything okay? " Alec could hear the concern in Magnus's voice.

"It-it's Laura- she, she is" Catherina clearly sobbed over the phone.

Magnus immediately feared the worst.

"She is dead, she took he own life, she left a note, explaining how she could not live on after Jim died, I – I tried to save her Magnus, I"

"I'm coming" Magnus didn't want Alexander to cry so he hid his emotions and turned to him and lied saying that a client needed him. Alexander understood, he walked over the Magnus and kissed his cheek, and before leaving he told Magnus to be careful.

As soon as the door closed Magnus let go of everything, he couldn't hold his tears back, they were stinging his eyes, he created a portal, and ended up just beside Catherina, who was on her knees, beside Laura's limb body.

Magnus went over and tried his best to comfort her, knowing that they had been close friends for over 2 centuries.

"All for love, Magnus, all for Jim" she muttered between the heavy sobs and whimpers.