Rewriting Me

Don't know anymore

Once a stranger asked me "Why, why do you hate the world and it's beautiful people. What did it do to you?"
And I replied. " That's the thing, I couldn't tell you. I have a family that loves me and would give me the world if I only asked. Same with many beautiful friendships. I have a large wonderful house and school. I have never been struck, hurt, or heart broken. My life is perfect." " And?" He asked paisontly, waching a few small warm tears, fall seeping slowly through my ice armer that hides the waves of emotions. " And, I'm living a lie." Watching the water of forgotten emotion stedaly flow back into me. " I couldn't tell you why I hate them, I hate them all! They treat me like a pease of cracked glass, or a sickly child. They cradle and protect me, as if I'm going to blow away in the wind, like ashes, dust, or sand. I'm sick of it, of them. I want to be the free hawk, not the caged song bird that's forsed to only dream of adventure. I never asked for the world, and my heart isn't broken, it's shaderd, by them. The same time my sprit broke." We pause a moment to watch as the stedy stream starts cracking the ice, transforming it into a large spew of emotions getting louder ever second, cracking and shadering the ice. I now skream and cry more to match the melting ice " I put up a false wall to hide I'm shy, and weak, and terified of being left behind. I hate the darkness because it gives you false alusions as if you were alone, but I tolerate it because it hides my shaded heart, and it's fears. And It's hopes and dreams. The reality that I don't think I'm strong enough to be alone, the reality that I'm scared. I cut to make the inner pain stop. I'm not sewisidle because I'm scared of death. " the ice is now gone, and with it my tears, now with a blank and lonely look to the flour I repeted my earlier statement " but I couldn't tell you why." And with that the stranger drapes his warm comforting arm around me, with a kind tired smile and says " You just did, come let's go and show the world you are no longer alone"

- This is why people go to the darkness, because it comes to you. And it listed. I'm no longer afraid of it.