Rewriting Me

Now

How long till they notice my pain,
Flowing down in rivers in vain.
I've given up my life and pride to not let you down.
I've set back my future it seems,
To let this perfect lie gleam.
I've not been self, at least I've tried
So you can still see the very little happiness shine.
It's been spread and stretched, to cover this mountain of pain, so I don't hurt your feelings, and to keep my sanity sain.
I've done what you've asked, I dare not complain. I've given up my friends, so that you may keep yourself safe.
But I feel as if I'm dieing inside, and why is it I've refused to say goodbye.
I know there's little money, and I know there's little time. BUT WHY MUST I SUFFER IN SILENCE, AND HOW LONG UNTIL YOU WILL LISTEN TO YOUR CRIME. I've been beaten, and worn. And I've tried to give you the world but now I can't help, you need to fix it now, for your child is done.
I have listened to your fears, and have done what you've asked, so please just let me relax.
I've left my life, and family, and friends.
I've given you my time and love.
Now there's none left, and I'm hungry and tired.
This isn't for you to hear or read because I am done sharing me. I'm not going to hurt you like that rech. I just please want to rest. If you catch me crying it's because I'm a teen, and unfortunately you can't help these things. I just want to do it alone, this is all I ask.