The simplest smile

Sounds great

"tag your it , mommy fast , look at me ."

It almost makes me sick . Seeing happy family's , little kid have fun with there friends everyone laughing . It made me sick , sick to my stomach with pain that feels like someone is repeatedly stabbing me . It made me sick because I know there is no way I can ever fell like that . Fell happy with a family that loves me , that I love where we can laugh and have a good time . Where you know they will be there for you.

See my mom died giving birth to me and my father could not live without her. Everyone alway said it was my fault, by everyone I mean my grandma. She took me in and everyday she would remind me that there death is my fault and how she would have never took me in if I did not look like my mom . She was pretty very pretty and I did look like her .

We both have blonde hair but not just any blonde it looks like the sand when the sun is rising. We also doth have hazel eyes and pale skin that looked like snow . Oh and lots of freckles . Even though I did not know her I miss her I think she would have been more kind to me that's grandma. Oh how I wish she was here .

That's when I saw him. Jake , straight A student, musical genius captain of the football team , and just last month held a fundraiser for a local animal shelter. I had seen him in school and we said hi but never really talked . He was good looking everyone if the girls in my school liked him . I think it s his eyes the green eyes looked like emerald stones . His dark brown hair was pictures of perfection . His skin was a bit sun kissed .

" hey ,Rene I have not seen you Lately .how are you ?" Jack smile made me melt inside .
" good . Is this your dog?" Rene was trying not to stare at his flawless completion.

" yah ! His name is ranger ." Jack got down netted to ranger petting him softly ." Would you like to pet him ?"

" yah . He so soft ." Rene was trying to keep the conversation going so he did not have to leave.

" thanks I just gave him a bath ."

" you know he looks like you." Rene said before she could even think.

"I guess he dose I have really never been told that before." Jack studied his dog . " you really do , you doth have emerald green eyes that can make anyone melt brown hair that's so soft and you doth are every handsome." Rene cut herself off . Stoping every movement and froze.

" thanks . I do look like him . Maybe that's why I like him so much because he looks like me ." They both laughed.

" do you normal come to this park I don't like I have seen you here before ?"

" umm . Not I don't . I don't really like to be somewhere where I can see happy families, you did not need to know that ." Rene jumped up . Jack got up and Rene started walking away .

" where are you going ?" Jack said catching up to her .

" walking it is a park ."

" can I ask why you don't like seeing happy families ?"

" long story." Rene said still walking faster and faster .

" I have time . Hey I need water anyway come on let me buy you something and we can sit down so you can tell me about it ?"

His smile was melting me inside . His eyes where screaming at he saying say yes . Somewhere deep inside me was screaming don't do it ! I should have listened.

" yah I Gus's . That sounds great ."