The Life She Lives

Chapter 1 - Dear Diary

Dear diary,

Today is my 7th birthday! but... dad's drunk again. I don't think anything good will happen with him drunk...

Still, I have my brothers to spend my day with. I hope this will be the best birthday ever!

There aren't any gifts, but I don't mind that. I just hope we have food to eat tonight...

Dear Diary,

I'm sorry I haven't written in here for so long, I lost you. Well, I'm 9 and a half now, dad still drinks and we have to fend for ourselves in this house. My oldest brother tries so hard to cook for us and take us to school but it's getting so hard. All my dad does is drink and sleep on the couch and he doesn't care that we're here starving and that he isn't taking us to school.

Nobody told me things would get like this

I hate it...

Dear Diary,

I'm almost 10 now, but I don't think it matters. Dad's always busy with her kids, so we're basically invisible.

Before we came here, I used to sneak out and see mum.

I miss that.

I miss her..

Dear Diary,

We've been living in out stepmother's home for a little while now. I've got used to being ignored.

She was kinda nice in the beginning but now she finds any and every reason to yell at us.

I just stay up in my room now, and I don't much feel like eating.

I'll just keep drawing since it's the only thing I can do.

Dear Diary,

My oldest brother is gone, she finally got rid of him. She threw him out, and dad just let her.

Bastard.

Dear Diary,

Me and my last older brother spend a lot of time together since she threw the oldest out.

I'll forever hate him for just watching.

He doesn't care about us anymore, it's all about her now.

I don't want to be alive, not that he'd notice I'm dead.

Dear Diary,

I have to do something to get out of this hellhole, every day is shouting, arguments, threats, I can't take it.

I can't take the yelling, the voices in my head yell loud enough.

I don't want to be put down anymore...

Dear Diary,

I did it.

She's kicking me out.

She's finally fucking kicking me out.

After what happened I don't blame her, but if I never look back, it can't affect me. Right..?

I can't wait to see you, mum.

I can't wait...