Jess pov~
I don't talk anymore, I don't get out of the house anymore, I stay in the room with the blinds and curtains closed in the dark.
"Jagi I'm going to work, do you want to come?" Jimin asked me
I stayed silent, I only shook my head no.
"Ok, do you want me to bring you anything?" He asked again now, sitting at the foot of the bed.
"No." A small hoarse voice came out.
I told you I haven't spoken in a long time.
"Um ok, I have to go now salanghae (I love you)." He said
"Bye." I whispered and he kissed me on my cheek and left.
I don't know why it started. It just came out of the dark one day. I was looking through family albums when I came across a picture of a woman and a man holding me when I was only a couple months old. I called her and asked her who they were, and she didn't tell me until her voice broke.
"I was going to tell you." She cracked.
"Tell me what?" I asked worried
"That's your biological parents." She said and sobbed.
"What?" I questioned
"Honey we adopted you when you were 2years old, your parents couldn't take care of you so they came to me personally and asked me to adopt you." She said
"S-so your not my mom, none of my family is actually my family." I said as my voice got quieter.
"Jess it doesn't matter, I raised you." She said
"Is my real name jessica?" I asked
"Yes it is, your mom named her after her great grandmother." My mom said
"Good, I was hoping my real name wasn't Haley or Brianna haha." I chuckled.
"Haha its ok, I just want you to know you'll always be my child." She said
"Ok, I gotta go bye." I said
I hung up before she said anything. Later that night I laid in bed cuddled next to jimin thinking about a lot of things. Why me? Do I have any other siblings? Did they want me back? Are they even alive anymore? All of those questions ran through my head making me want to bust out in tears. I'm lost, I can't find myself. I'm not sure if I really am who I say I am. The next day I didn't tell jimin, nor did I take any phone calls from anyone. That was almost a week ago, I don't even know what day it is. Jimin always texts me asking if I need anything or if I'm ok, he knows I won't answer if he calls.
JM: hey baby did you take a nap you haven't answered my text in awhile.
Received at 5:24pm
JP: yea Im sorry for not responding, so how was your day?
Sent at 5:27
JM: same as usual, I'm on my way home right now, momma Jin is driving 😂
Received at 5:28
JP: Lol well I'll see you then I love you.
Sent 5:28
JM: ok love you too😙
Received at 5:29
I laid my phone down and stared at the ceiling and started over thinking. The front door closed and footsteps were heard coming towards the room.
"Jagi what's wrong?" Jimin asked when he seen me.
"Nothing." My voice cracked then I realized I have been crying.
"Something, jebal tell me" he said sitting next to me.
"Nothing is wrong oppa." I said
He grabbed me and pulled me onto his lap and hugged me making my head squish onto his muscular chest.
"Jess you haven't spoke to anyone besides me, you don't get out, you don't even do that weird thing you do when I come home, I miss that. The entire 5 years we've been together, I miss my wife." Jimin said as he hugged me.
Then I lost it, I started crying in his chest then he started rocking me back and forth. He kissed the top of my head and asked me why i was crying.
"Shhh shhh is ok jagi tell me what's bothering you." He said
"I found out that I was adopted and i-im so lost, I can't find myself." I sobbed into his chest.
"Jagi, if you're ever lost or feel like your lost, I will always find you. Don't keep your emotions all bottled up, you can talk to me, salanghae jagi nothing will change that." He said then kissed me.
For some reason that kiss brought me back to reality, his words helped too but this kiss was different, it felt like the day we got married, our first kiss, when I met him and all of the great memories I've shared with him all combined and became a passionate kiss.
"Salanghae oppa." I said as we pulled away from the kiss.
"I love you too jagi." He smiled and hugged me.
~ end of the stupid chapter based in a vine.
