Hetalia Attempted Suicide Stories

Russia gives up: Part 1

~Freak~
~Monster~
~Ugly oaf~
He tells himself over and over.
As he walks out of the meeting room America says "goodbye" and Russia tries to put on the best fake smile he can. He watches as Italy clings to Germany and France argues with england. He wishes he could be happy, he wishes he didn't hate himself as much as he did.
"Mr. Russia" his young servant Lithuanian asks him.
"Yes"
"Are you OK?" Lithuania questions.
"Yeah what makes you think something's wrong Da?" Russia replies, smile fading.
Truth was, he wasn't OK. Not at all. He hadn't been eating at all and hadn't been getting any sleep. He stayed up crying and felt to fat to eat.
"Well you don't looka so good, you look really sick and a little sad actually." Lithuanian says with a concerned look in his eyes.
Russia looks at him not knowing what to say. He had been suffering from depression for quite awhile now and really really didn't want to talk about it.
The silence was getting awkward so Russia simply replies with " I'm going to my office, stay here and help Latvia clean up".
Russia than walks off with tears in his eyes. Lithuanian was very confused so he decided to grab Latvia and go investigate Russia some more. Russia then walked into his office and punched the wall making a loud noise.
"Why? Why can't I just be happy? What's wrong with me? Please help! I want to be happy! I want to smile! I don't want people to be so scared of me." Russia screamed at himself scaring the two young countries standing outside of his door.
Russia walked to his desk and pulled out a razor.
*Knock knock* "Russia? What's going on? Russia?" Lithuania and Latvia yelledd to him from behind the large door.
"Don't worry I won't scare people anymore" Russia yelled to them.
RUSSIA? OPEN ZIS DOOR NOW!" Yelled the tall blonde, Germany.
Lithuanian and Latvia must have gotten more help because Russia could hear the voices of other countries outside.
One cut
Two cuts
Russia watched as the beautiful red blood runs down his arm and falls to the floor.
"RUSSIA OPEN THIS GODDAMN DOOR NOW" America yelled and banged on the door trying to knock it down.
Russia continued to cut himself over and over.
The countries finally knocked down the door, greeted with there large Russian friend laying on the floor in his own pool of blood. Italy screamed and they all ran over surrounding the Russian man.
"Why" china sayed with tears running down his face.
"Because monsters deserve to go to hell" Russia sayed as his eyes closed.
~End~

Authors note:
OK so this was my first story and I know it sucks but I'm thinking that im gonna make a second part so please tell me what you think. Bye!!!