Hetalia Attempted Suicide Stories

Russia gives up: Part 3

Russia laid in the hospital bed, crying. Not sobbing or sniffing. Just tears falling down his face. His skin was pale and his head hurt so bad. He just wanted to die. He began to hear voices outside of his room. He couldn't make out the deep voice but the high pitched voice he new was his boyfriend China.
~flashback~
"Hey" Russia said to his small friend China with blush on his face.
China was standing in nothing but bright pink spandex shorts and had is hair in a cute bun.
"I just wanted to say thanks for talking to me last week and I think im doing better much better."
"No problem, it's nothing really for someone I love." China said nonchalantly.
Russia face turned a million shades of red.
"Whats wrong? Is there something wrong?" China said reaching up to cup Russia's face in his hand.
"Is it true what you said about loving me" Russia said.
"What?... of course! I do love you." China said with a cute smile on his face.
"Ok then I was wondering..." Russia said with a pause.
"Go on"
"Well I was just wondering if you... you... um if.
"Russia just say what you want"
"WellIhavealwaysthoughtyouwerecuteandfunnyandniceandiwantedtoknowifyouwouldbemyboyfriend." Russia screamed without pause, scaring the smaller male.
It took a minute for China to realize but as soon as he did a small smile slipped through.
"Of course! I would love to be your boyfriend, but you will have to promise me something.
"Yes anything, of course, anything." Russia said happily.
"YOU are not aloud to hurt yourself anymore" China said pulling up Russia sleeve and reviling all of his scars.
Russia pulls back lightly and smiles at China.
"Ok I promise" Russia said in high pitch voice.
"I love you Russia" China said pulling Russia down into a kiss.
~ Flash back over~
Remembering the memory Russia began to cry harder. China walked into the room with tears in his eyes. He sat next to Russia never making eye contact with him. He grabbed his hand and laid his head on Russia's chest, just enjoying his company. Russia didn't say anything and neither did China. Russia still had lots of tears running down his face but wasn't making a single noise. He was in so much pain.
"I'm so so sorry." Russia said breaking the silence. He began to sob and weep.
"Im so so so so sorry" he said over and over.
He began to freak out even more.
"Freaky ugly monster. I hate me, I hate me, I hate me!" Russia began to yell.
China stood up grabbing Russia's arm trying to calm him.
"Stupid, stupid, stupid!" Russia began to yell. The doctors began to rush in.
"Mr.Russia you going to have to calm down sir" his doctor said.
"Shut up Shut up Shut up!"
"Mr.Russia, your going to hurt yourself"
"GOOD! I WANT TO DIE!" Russia said clawing at the bandages on his forearms.
Some of the doctors ran over, holding Russia's Hands down forcing a pill into his mouth. China stood beside Russia the whole time, crying. They held Russia to the bed. One of the doctors had his hand over Russia's mouth to make sure he didn't spit out the pill. Russia looked at China with wide teary eyes and once the doctor let go of his mouth he said six simple words.
"I'm sorry I broke my promise"