Thank you for finding me

Frustration & Disappointment | 3

"He was such a dick." I rage to Hunter my gay friend. "But he was so hot so I'm not that mad."

"Oh honey who is this guy so I can't go sass him out till he drops to ground and realizes who he's messed with." Hunter says. I consider the option but push the ridiculous idea aside.

"It's all good.. He was so hot though." I keep saying.

"Zella if he's that hot then why don't you know his name?"

"Cause he's a dick."

"Okay we've been over this like a hundred times. I'm starving so let's go out and get some In-n-out cause I'm having withdrawals." He claims. Nodding I get up and put my Jesus sandals on and walk out the door with Hunter.  We arrive at in-n-out and I know early what I'm going to get.
"I'm going to get a double double a strawberry shake and fries. What about you girl."

"I'm not feeling a hamburger today but I'll get a chocolate shake and the animal style fries."

"Whatever. Go find a booth and I'll order it's on me."

"No I can pa-"

"No Zella I'm paying don't argue with me. I may be gay but I'm still a gentleman."

I nod and go sit down. My thoughts drift to Beau and the fact that I have to return to work tomorrow. Shit. Shit. Shit.

"I ordered the food it should be here soon. Oh God I'm so exited for this I haven't eaten my in-n-out in a while." He states and pulls out his phone. Panic rises and I seem to forget how to breath.

"I'll be back, don't eat my fries." I get up and head to the bathrooms. Tears well up in my eyes and I don't know why I'm so emotional. Sure Beau is sexually assaulting me but it can't be that bad? Right? Distracted I run into someone.  A worker assuming from the apron. "I'm sorry." I sniffle and glance up. Shit. "You again!" It's the guy again.

"Hey I'm sorry about the othe-"

"I don't care leave me alone you dick." Years now betraying me and falling down my cheek.

"No listen to me. I was drunk and I'm really sorry about what happened." He reaches for my hand to soothe. I smack it away.

"leave me alone I don't want to talk to you." I scoff and head back to my table.

"Wait I'm not done talking to you."

"Well I am." I reach our booth and Hunter looks up from his phone.

"Hey girl how's it-"

"Let's go. Now." I state.

"Oh girl whose that." He says pointing and someone behind me.

"That would be the reason we are leaving."

"No wait I need to talk to you."

I turn around "I told you I don't want to talk to you. Who cares if we've kissed, I don't. You won't even tell me you're name and you're the biggest dick I know." Anger fumes from me. "Hunter let's go."

He gets up and grabs his shake and heads out.

"My name is Michael. Michael Smith."

I stop in my tracks. Michael Smith. I wipe away the year that escapes and keep walking. My heart breaks. I hear him yell after me and I make it to the car and Hunter drives away.

"Damn he was hot. Girl you need to hop on that train before it leaves the station."

I nod silently and let the silent tears roll down my face.