"Soo" Sam speaks, as we walk out of the airport holding hands
I look at him, waiting for him to continue
"What happens now?" he brushes his hands through his hair
"I'm not quite sure, but I know who I want to be with and that's you" I look over at the guy of my dreams
"How about we go back to the hotel I'm staying in and work things out from there" he smiles
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"How do you feel about going back to LA?" I see hope in Sams eyes
"I don't know" I sigh in frustration
"I mean I could always move here"
"I could never ask you to do that, your life is in LA" I fall back onto the bed
"I'd do anything for you Gabriella" he walks towards me
I stare at him
I can't let him move here, it's not fair
but can I move back to LA?
maybe it is time for me to go home.
"I need to go somewhere, I'll be back soon" I kiss Sams cheek and walk out of the room
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I stand outside the familiar apartment door, hesitant of what to do next
before I can decide, the door opens revealing the person I came to see
"Gabby" his voice speaks
causing me to burst into tears
"I'm so sorry" I run into his arms
"Come in" he lightly pulls me and shuts the door
"I'm so sorry James, I really am" I wipe the tears from my eyes
"I should have expected it really, I knew how you felt about that Sam guy" he sighs
"I thought my feelings had gone away"
"Real feelings never really go away" he sits down
"I know that now" I take a seat next to him
"James, you deserve someone so much better than me, a girl who can give you everything you want and need"
"You are that girl though" he looks at me with sad eyes
"No, I'm not, I wish I was but I'm not"
"What happens now?" his eyebrows scrunch up
"I think I need to move out" I sigh
"But this is your apparent" he sounds confused
"It's yours now"
"And I um, I think I'm going to go home" I continue
"Home?" he asks
"Los Angeles"
"Oh" his voice breaks
"I'm sorry, but you will find the right one for you I promise, it's just not me" I pull him into a hug
"I love you so much James, I wish you the best in life I really do" I kiss his cheek and stand up
"I'll always love you" he looks up at me
I smile at the man i'd spent a year of my life with
"I'll send someone to get my things, I don't want to make this any harder for you.
Goodbye James" I take one last look at him and walk out of the door.
I feel like the worlds worst person, I've completely broken him
but this was just something I needed to do, sooner rather than later.
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"Gabriella" Sam looks surprised to see me
"Hi Sammy" I hug him
"Are you okay? you look as if you've been crying" he mumbles into the hug
"I went to see James" I pull away
"How did it go?" he looks sympathetic
"Better than I expected, but he's really hurt"
"Understandable, but you did what you needed to do" he pulls me closer to him
"Sam" I look up at him
"Yes?"
"Let's go home" I sigh
"But what about your career" he frowns
"LA is filled with actors so I'm sure I'll be fine" I smile
"If this is what you want" he gently kisses my forehead
"It is, but not just for you.
I need to see my family too"
"You do, I get that" his eyes stare into mine
I've been running for so long I don't really know how to stop, all I know is how to slow down.
I pick up my iPhone and dial a not so familiar number
"Gabby?" I hear the voice echo
"Hi dad"
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