Preference; Your first big fight. LONG!/Harry (from tumblr!)
You had been scrolling through your twitter mentions coming accross hate, rude remarks and you had been called every name under the sun by Harrys fans, it didnt really bother you. Until you came accross one tweet caught your attention. 'Im so so sorry, but you need to see this. Stay strong, i love you.' it had a photo attached. You contemplated whether you should open it or not for a few minutes. Then you decided to open it. It was your worst nightmare. Your boyfriend, Harry Styles with another girl, kissing her. You tried to find a line of discolouration or any sense of photoshop but you couldnt keep looking at them locking lips. You slammed the laptop shut and sat there hyperventilating until the door unlocked and Harry was home, you ran over to him banging your fists on his chest repetitively. 'How could you! How could you Harry! I hate you, asshole!' you yelled still banging your fists on his chest. '[y/n] what is going on?! What are you talking about! What did i do!?!' Harry yelled over the top of you grabbing your wrists looking you dead in the eye. You stared at him for a while and he let go of your wrists and you sprinted to the bed room shutting the door and locking it, you started packing a bag with as many clothes as you could. 'I will break this god damn door, babe just tell me what ive done!' harry yelled banging his hands on the door. You opened the door to see a confused look on Harrys face. 'Dont call me that.' you said, referring to how he called you babe. You grabbed his phone and brought up the twit pic of him kissing another girl and gave it him, opening the front door. Crying without realising you started to speak. 'Getting hit by a car. Yeah, that wouldve hurt less then this. Good bye Harry.' you said, looking in his eyes, just needing one last look and letting him have time to say something back. ' I love you, i need you please..dont go..' Harry said. 'No, you dont cheat on someone you love. Dont call me text me or try to see me. see ya.' you said and ran and ran feeling like everything was on top of your lungs, you called the one person you new was true to you, Danielle. You dialed her number begging her to pick up. Tears kept rushing outve your eyes and onto your puffy cheeks. '[y/n]? Hey whats u- 'Danielle please come pick me up im at the park near my house, please' you said through sobs, you hung up the phone hearing her car keys and the car start. 15 minutes later and you heard your name being called by a familiar voice, Danielle. You ran into the passenger seat trying to explain what happened but all you could do was cry replaying that fight in your head and everytime you closed your eyes the image of him kissing that scrag was there. Danielle being the great person she was she said you could stay with her as long as you needed, which would probably be a while. She even organised for Liam to stay at Nialls so you had some girl time. And thats what happened.
After a month, you'd recieved countless calls and texts from Harry. Deleting them before reading them, knowing if you did you would break again. You missed him endlessly but hated him for what he did. He even tried to see you once, and hearing his voice made you break, You some what hated him, but you loved him so much it hurt. Louis had came over and endless amount of times trying to get you to see Harry, and even apologizing for him but you just sent him away saying the same thing you always did. 'Harry did wrong, he did what he new would hurt me the most, and as i said to him..being hit by a car wouldve hurt less.'
'Theres a party tonight, at Joshs house, you wanna come with me maybe? its okay if you dont want to just a thought, you havent been out the house in weeks..' Danielle said, the look in her eye was like she was about to get on her hands and knees and beg you to get out of the house and socialize, mingle and just get some fresh air. 'okay..' you responded reluctantly. The smile on Danielles face was priceless. Now to find something to wear...
Louis and Danielle were the only ones that you truly new your pain. You got in the taxi, nerves riddling your body. Thinking about everybody and having to answer 'are you okay?' or 'how are you holding up?" every 5 minutes made you want to run home and go to bed. You got distracted by someone talking to you, Louis. 'You coming babe? We are here' Your nerves took over your body, Louis and Danielle both by your sides helping you keep your feet up. You walked in the doors and were greeted by Liam, Niall all the boys and there girls saying hello. You could see there sympathetic smiles. You went and mingled awkwardly when Danielle came over to you, saving you from everyone. 'Hey are you okay?' she said looking in your eyes for the answer. You were about to reply when your saw a familiar face behind her, one you didnt expect to see tonight. Those beautiful brown curls were all to familar. He was smiling and laughing and he looked happy without you, but you watched as he saw you. You watched as all happiness and colour left his gorgeous face. You watched as he mouthed your name, it felt like it was only you and Harry in the room. Until Danielle turned around and saw what caught your attention. 'Louis wasnt supposed to bring him, lets go now.' Danielle grabbed your arm but you pulled away. Panic was taking over you. 'No, no. Im fine. Im okay, im..im good..' you said backing away knocking into someone. 'im so sorry, um sorry..' you said. You lost sight of Harry. Your head was spinning and your eyes were blurry, Without realising you had starting crying. The image of Harry and that girl kissing overflowed your thoughts once again and you couldnt breathe properly. You ran up the stairs into the first bedroom you could find. You locked the door and lent back on it trying to slow you breathing. 'i cant do this anymore' you whispered, you tried to stop the tears but they wouldnt stop. 'Yes you can..' Frightened you turned to look around to see a messed up crying Harry. 'No' you paused for just a moment 'What i need is you..' you whispered back looking at your feet. 'Youve always had me [y/n]' You were unaware of how close you and Harry were when you looked up. 'You hurt me, you cheated.' You reminded him, he needed to realise how much he hurt you, how you are so damaged now. And how you will never, ever get over what he did. ' I havent always had you. You left me as soon as you kissed her.' you said looking him dead in the eye. You havent seen him since you walked out. You missed him more then ever, but you had to restrain yourself from kissing all the pain away. You had to remind yourself he cheated on you, not the other way round, You looked into his pleading eyes, it was silent. You stared, neither saying a thing. But you broke the stare. And walked out the door,not looking back, walking down the stairs not looking at anyone walking out the door ignoring everyone yelling your name, you couldnt deal with anyone anymore, and you walked. You just kept walking. You ran for a while making sure no one would follow you, Not knowing where you were or where you were going. You truly were broken and the only person that could fix you was the one who caused all the pain.. Harry styles.
