double tap // kiingtong

fifteen

a/n was anyone there for will's stream  yesterday? he like read my thing three times ahha
one of them was "can we talk about your huh tweet?" and he was like "wait what" i was ded

anyways enjoy my sucky writing xoxo
(my twitch name is pprincessella so if u see me in chat hmu)

Leah

"-Will you be my girlfriend Leah?" Will asked quickly, his eyes meeting mine.

My mouth dropped open to speak, but no words came out.

Will's eyes looked down at me, hopefully.

"I-" I tried to speak but I couldn't. I felt too much pressure all at once.

"I gotta go," was all I managed to blurt out, before bolting away from him. I ran to a random panel, taking a deep breath, wanting to cry.

"Leah? You okay?" A voice interrupted my thoughts.
There was Zack, looking worried.
"I'm okay, I promise." I tried to tell him but he shook his head.

"No, what happened Leah?" He asked, coming closer to me.
I shook my head, tears flooding my eyes. "I'm a shitty person." I mumbled, trying to wipe away the oncoming tears.

"No, Leah, you're not why would you think that?" Zack asked quietly, bringing me into a hug.
"I'm a shitty person," I cried onto his shoulder.
"No, your not, do you want to go home?" Zach asked me, pulling me away to look at me.

I wiped away more of the tears nodding slowly. "Okay. I'll come with you."He said, giving me a genuine smile.
"No, Zack I can't make you leave. You've been waiting to go to this convention forever." I said shaking my head, feeling more upset. I was making my friend leave something he was happiest doing to take care of my needs.

"Leah, I want to help you. We can leave, it'll be fine." Zack says quietly to me. I nod again, wrapping my arms around myself, as Zack texted some people.

His phone began to ring and he sighed. "Sorry, it's Graser." He informed me, answering the call.

"Hey bro, whats up?" Zack began to talk to him.
I sighed as well, and then took a deep breath, trying to make myself crying.

I saw The Sidemen, walking through the crowds, all laughing and joking around. I went to look away, but Jj caught me looking.
He walked over toward me, eyebrows furrowed.

"Hey, Leah right? What's wrong?" He asked me, confused.

"Yeah, it's nothing really. I'm just having a bad time." I say forcing a laugh.
"Okay, well maybe I could cheer you up. You wanna go out tonight with us tonight?" He offered, giving a smile.

"Yeah, I'll think about it. If I'm feeling up to it." I told him, not wanting to straight up say no. I wasn't sure if I wanted to go or not.

Zack came back, and smiled and Jj and I.
"Grase said it was cool with him, I called an uber too. And you're KSI, how cool man." Zack told me, and then gushed over Jj.

"Yeah man, whats up." Jj nodded towards him.

"I'll see you around Leah, hope you feel better." Jj smiled weakly, giving me a hug.

"Thank you Jide. I'll see you around," I say hugging him back.

And he went off and trailed behind the rest of the sidemen.

"Ready?" Zack smiled at me. I smile back nodding.

-

I wiped away the rest of the tears as we pulled up to the house.

Zack grabbed the extra house key that was under the little flower pot on the porch, and unlocked the door.

He placed it back, and we entered the warm house.
"You gonna sleep?" Zack asked. "Yeah." I said quietly.

"Ok. I'll be down here if you need me." Zack said, hugging me again. I hugged him back, and he kissed the top of my head.

We both pulled back and I trudged up the stairs, into Bee's and I room. I flopped onto the pink bed groaning, not bothering to change.

I threw the covers over myself, trying to sleep for what seemed like hours which was most likely only 30 minutes.

I flipped and turned, and finally sat up.

"Zack?" I called out. No answer.
I flung the cover off me and peaked out the door. "Zack?" I called again.

"Yeah?"

"Can you uh," I wasn't sure how to word it.
Zack was already coming up the stairs.
"What do you need?" He was already dressed in joggers and a tee.

"Can you sleep in my bed with me? Just- like - just like until I fall asleep, you can leave then." I stuttered out. It was hard to sleep alone feeling like this.

"Uh, yeah if thats what you want." Zack shrugged. I nodded awkwardly, going back to the bed, and getting under the covers and scooting to one side.

Zack crawled in next to me, turning to face me.

"Night." I mumbled.

Zack pulled me closer to him, my head against his chest.
"Night." He muttered back.

Was this right? Was this who I really liked? I felt like I was betraying Will, but it shouldn't matter. We're not even dating.

But why did this feel so wrong?
Why did I want it to be Will?

I tried to get thoughts of my head. But they only fled back.
I liked Will, right? Then why did I say no to him?

I was confusing myself, but I tried to not think about it and just sleep.

But in the back of my head, something was telling me that this with Zack was wrong, and Will was right.

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a/n: feck yall!!!! sum deep shit !! my writing is so bad i need jesus
btw poke is zack if u did nat know for some reason