ALEJANDRA: She Can't Forget *Completed*

PROLOGUE: Lost

I lift my chin, though I can never look into your eyes again,

The feelings I have still lingers,

I could still feel your kisses in my neck, sending chills and warmth..

Though I can't hear your voice again..

In my head I can still hear you sing...oh baby how sweet my name could be,

Everytime you speak with melody,

Baby come back to me, just come back to me, right now Im not okay, so baby please come back to me....

In my dreams I can hear you say,

Words of love you feel for me,

And when I lay down my back in my bed,

I can still feel your lips kissing my head,

Your scent is the perfume of my pillows, yet everytime I held one, I would realize that you're no longer with me, and it brings me tears, ohh baby calm my heart,

Come back to me....oh baby come back to, cause Im missing you everyday, baby please come back to me...right now Im not okay, so baby please come back to me.

Hmmm...hmmm uuhh..ohh
Baby come back to me... Could it still be you and me, when we're heaven and earth away,

Is another  lifetime kind exist? So we'll have a taste of more time,

If there and then will be, I want you to be mine, mine again, so baby please, ease my pains,wipe my tears,hold my weeps, be with me, please come back to me......

Marahan kong pinunasan ang mga luhang lumandas mula sa aking mga mata habang kumakanta. I cleared my throat, pinigilan kong mapahikbing muli.

My heart is being ripped again, this time, into million pieces. Every freaking day of my lifeless life.

I wrote the song last night, ewan ko ba. I cant seem to stop myself, tulad ng hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong mangulila sa kanya.

People say, Im just living because Im alive. Maaaring tama sila, if killing myself is not a sin, marahil dati pa ako nagpatiwakal. Naisip ko, kung ginawa ko iyon, hindi ko parin sya makakasama..dahil mapupunta ako sa impyerno.

Mahigpit kong niyakap ang gitara sa aking bisig, nagbabakasakaling mabawasan kahit papaano ang lamig dala ng simoy ng hangin, marahil ay hindi na talaga ako masasanay sa klima ng Japan.

Napatingin ako sa upuang kaharap ko nang may kung sinong humatak nito. I saw a man smilling at me.

Walang sabi-sabing umupo sya sa harap ko at patuloy akong tinitigan. I look back at him showing no emotions at all. Dapat pa ba akong makaramdam? Manhid na ata ako.

"The song is lonely." He said after a while. Pinulot nya ang notebook kung saan nakasulat ang mga lyrics ng kanta at binasa. Hindi ko sya sinuway. I simply dont care.
"It has so much of longing. Youre missing someone I conclude then." He continued. His index finger is on his chain, while reading my note. I look away. "Are you lost?" Napabaling uli ako ng tingin sa direksyon nya. Nakita kong nakatitig na sa akin ang mga mata nyang kulay abo. Kumunot ang noo ko. Mukha ba akong naliligaw? "Sometimes lonely people are just lost. Just like a boat in the middle of the sea, surrounded by darkness. They cant find their way home, it is why lighthouse is being build in the high place enough for them to see their way." He stop a bit and lean closer to my face. I could smell his breathe, tila nawala ang lamig sa paligid ko nang maramdaman ko ang init mula sa kanyang katawan. "But I can see in your eyes that you're not lost, you just dont wanna come home...yet." Wala aking maisip sabihin. Dapat ay magalit ako. Ano bang karapatan nyang pagsalitaan ako ng ganito? Sino ba sya? Pero wala akong magawa, para akong nalulunod sa lalim ng titig nya. "Tell me, are you lost?"

Lumunok ako bago subukang magsalita. And thank God I found my voice!! "Im dead. I lost my heart." Halos ibulong ko nalang ang mga salitang iyon. I didn't show any emotion. Nakatitig lang din sya sa akin. Particular to my eyes. He seems to digging something in it.

"If you lost your heart, would you let someone find it for you?" I was stunned by his words? Would I?? Isa lang ang puso ko, at ang tinitibok nito. At ngayon wala na, mahahanap ko pa ba? Posible ba? Paano?

By forgetting and moving on.

But I dont wanna forget. I cant.

Marahan akong umiling. "No." Napaawang ang mga labi nya sa binanggit ko. "My heart died two years ago. No matter if someone finds it, Im still dead. Because it will never beat again. Never." Hinaplos ko ang kanyang pisngi. I dont know why, I just feel like doing it. "You have such beautiful pair of eyes." Wala sa loob na naisatinig ko. Nakatingin lang sya sa akin.

Marahan akong tumayo. Sinundan nya ang bawat galaw ko. I took a deep breathe before turning my back.

Muling nilukob ng kalungkutan ang pagkatao ko. I should move on, but I just cant....bawat hakbang na gawin koy syang pagbuhos ng mga alaala ng nakalipas. When only him and me matters.

Muling tumulo ang mga luha sa aking mga mata. Why do I have this feeling of getting use with this pain in my chest and die again and again.

My heart just Can't Forget.