It's creeping,
crawling all over my skin,
eats away my confidence,
this monstrosity within.
This girl in the mirror,
it's a monster it's not me,
this girl I can't stand,
it's not who I want to be.
Tear away my outer shell,
and crawl it's way inside,
change the way I operate,
the other me has died.
No amount of water,
can ever make me clean,
this dirty girl that takes the wheel,
is a souless machine.
Tie me down and beat me,
it won't make her go away,
this girl I hate so much,
is the one I choose to stay.
She whispers in my ear,
slowly change my sight,
to a blurry vision,
of what is wrong and right.
She's killing me so slowly,
I'm partially dead in a way,
this monster I've become,
no longer kept at bay.
Breaking all my mirrors,
won't help me change the outcome,
I'll just cut myself on the pieces,
and create a bigger problem.
This murky vision of myself,
is who I want to kill,
but when I take away her life,
I'm still the one who pays the bill.
