14 and pregnant

Chapter 14

Jessicas P.O.V

I woke up and i was in my bed mqybe it was all just a dream i went to sit up and winced and looked at my arm nope not a dream

"jonh!!"i yelled he came running up the stairs and looked at me for a minunt

"why....Why jessica why did you do it?"jonh asked slowly i sighed

"i have known i was addopid since for ever but now she came back thiking she could make every thing better and she cant i just dont wanna go on like this always hurting and crying"i looked and jonh he nodded and mumbled he was ganna be right back he brought up some food

"plz dont do this again i did not bring you to hospitol this time but i will next time i did jot want them to take you and put you in the mebtal hospital..."he traild off and i nodded and started eating the food that he had givin me it was walfals and an apple

"thank you"i smiled up at him and he nodded and leaf the room

I looked around and could not belive that i did that when i live in this kind of life and i dont wanna do it no more but i know i will end up doing it again i sighed and layed down i stayed all day in my room jonh cheeked on me every 30 mins witch is ok with me i guess at least he cears right?

                     the next day

Jonh was in my room in the moring with food and looked at my cuts i flinched and looked at him hes gave me a smile as if saying sorry i just nooded my head as if saying its ok

"they look like there getimg better so..."jonh trailed off and looked at me again he stared at me then looked at my lips i bit my lip

"so..."i said he looked away

" can trust u to take a shower?"he asked i looked at him and giggled and looned away and nodded

"ok go get in ok ill cheek in"he wispered and walked out the room

I woljed im the bath room and loojed right at the razor then looked away i tured on the water and got in i looked to the razor again and grabed it i tock the razor and draged it aginsed my hip i took a deep breath and let it out

"jessica u ok in there"jonh asked

"yep"i yelled and he leaft and i dod it again i did it 5 times then wasched up and by then it had stoped bleeding and i put on my clots and went and sat on my bed jonh came in and looked at me for a minunt

"are you ok?"he wispered softly like if he said it to loud i would die

"i-um-no"i wispered looking at him he sigh

"talk to me about it"

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Sorry i love yall alot im fucking depreesed as hell right now and did the chaoters im ganna try to get better i love yall so much thanks for reading my book