LA Confidential [JB] [BWWM]

FIVE.

- Eryn -

Lately Priscilla has been in Europe modeling, so me and Justin have been spending a lot of time together. So much that I've been blowing Raven and my family members off, just to be with him.

I constantly crave his presence, not just his sex. I know people will start to ask questions soon, but I don't have answers. I wouldn't even know where to start, or what kind of lie I could even make up.

I wish I could tell Raven so bad, it would be nice to have someone to confide in, but I know it wouldn't blow over well. She's really big on karma, and according to her, this would probably top the charts. But me, I'm a firm believer in "everything happens for a reason".

I feel Justin wiggling around next to me, removing me from my thoughts. I turn over to see his smiling face. What an amazing way to start a Saturday morning.

"Good morning beautiful" he says, in his raspy morning voice.

"Good morning handsome" I reply, brushing his hair out of his face.

"Come here" he says, pulling me closer to him.

I scoot over next to him, as he wraps his arms around me. I love being here, I feel so safe in his arms. I wish I could wake up to this every day, but sadly I can't.

"Hey Jay, I have a question." I propose.

He raises his eyebrows, a nonverbal way of asking what.

"Do you ever want to really settle? Like get married, have kids, all that?" I ask, tracing the outline of the cross tattoo on his chest.

"Yeah, of course. One day, I hope I find my true love, and give her the most amazing, most beautiful wedding she could ever wish for. And have a couple little ones running around, maybe like 3. At the most. Family is really important to me, I can't wait to have one of my own." He says, smiling.

"Priscilla doesn't want kids?" I ask.

"Not at all, not even one. We're complete opposites of each other. That's why we argue so much." He says, rubbing his hands up my back.

"How did you even begin a relationship like that?" I wonder, confused.

"She's a liar, that's how. She lied and fooled her way in, then once she found out that her dad had me like a puppet, the real Priscilla came out. The Priscilla that hates kids, doesn't like to spend time with my family, or me for that matter. All she cares about is money and modeling. And not even passionately, she models to make more money, to buy more things. She's constantly asking for something or needing something to be upgraded. It makes me sick." He sighs.

"You need to get out Jay. Quickly, before she tears you down. Nobody wants to see that happen. I'm not saying immediately, but you've got to start thinking of ways around the bullshit, so eventually you can escape, and be free, do your own thing and be happy. You deserve that." I said, planting a kiss on his lips.

He instantly kisses me back, causes butterflies to flutter around in my stomach. He quickly rolls me over, so his body is now hovering over mine.

"You're amazing Eryn. You know that?" He said before kissing me.

"Nope, I didn't. But thank you, it means a lot." I say, blushing.

"I wish I could be everything for you, the man you'd like me to be." He says, laying his head into the crook of my neck. I kiss his forehead softly.

"You're doing just fine. I take you as you are Justin. Maybe one day this can be something more. Until then, I'm content with what I'm getting." I say, lying through my teeth, but it's enough to end this conversation.

As I breathe out a sigh, Justin begins kissing my neck. Placing small pecks all the way down from my ear, to my collar bone. He knows that I like that, it's his way of letting me know he wants to fuck me. I run my fingers through his hair, tugging on the ends - my way of letting him know that I'm all his.

I already have no clothes on, I slept naked last night. Justin sits up a little and begins kissing all down my chest, stopping to suck on my hard nubs. After the much needed attention, he kisses between the valley of my breasts, and works his way down to my belly button, then stops right at my panty line. I'm kind of confused as to why he stopped, seeing as I have no panties on and I'm soaking wet for him. He looks up at me, making eye contact for a moment.

"Why did you stop Jay?" I asked nervously.

"I gotta talk to you about something. I totally forgot until now." He said, rolling off of me and laying next to me.

"Okay, talk then." I said, propping up on my elbow as I faced towards him.

"I'm going on a promotional tour, it's 3 months long." He said quietly.

"Okay, so that means we can't see each other. Like at all right?" I asked frowning, instantly getting sad.

"Yeah, I guess. Unless you travel to see me wherever I'm staying. Priscilla won't be with me, so it's possible. But besides that, I won't be able to see you." He recommended.

I didn't say anything, I just sat there and looked at him. I felt tears welling up in my eyes, so i got up from the bed and put my robe on, making my way to the bathroom.

I hear Justin rustling in the bed to get up. He knocks on the door a few times, but I don't answer.

"Eryn? Baby girl?" He said softly at the door.

"Don't call me that Justin. I need some space please." I say, trying not to sound like I've been crying.

"Eryn, please. What's wrong? What did I do?" He asked.

I slowly unlocked the door and went and sat back down on the edge of the bathtub as he walked in.

"I had just gotten so used to you being here with me. Priscilla has been gone for over a month, and you've basically been living here. It's hard to snap back to reality. To realize that you're still not mine, you belong to someone else." I sniffled.

"I'm sorry Eryn, I don't know what to do. You know about everything that's going on. I've said it a million times, I wish that I could be the man you want me to be. But it's just not possible right now." He said, head hanging low.

"So, I'm supposed to travel all over the country to see you? What about people seeing us together? You'll constantly have people with you, it seems impossible Justin, honestly." I said, looking at him.

"I will figure all of that out. And I'll pay, for everything. If you want to come see me, I'll make sure it can happen." He said, rubbing my arm.

"Okay, I'll have to think about it. I'm gonna be pretty busy these next few weeks. When are you leaving?" I asked him.

"Monday, but I have some stuff to handle before I go, so I guess you could say tomorrow, since I won't be able to see you either way." He replies.

"Okay, well let's make the most of our time together, since I don't know when I'll see you again. Wanna go out and do something?" I questioned.

"Uhh, sure. How about shopping? Friends do that together right?" He asked.

"Yes, but what's that have to do with us?" I'm confused.

"There will be cameras, and I have to have an explanation for Priscilla, and my team." He said, clearing it up for me.

"Oh, okay then. Let me get dressed." I said, hopping out of bed and heading to my closet to pick out and outfit.

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A/N:

Just a filler chapter, the good shit is coming. I promise!! People are going to start asking questions, but how are they gonna answer them? Lol.

I'm so lame, excited about my own story lmao.