I Died For You. (Grell X Reader)

chapter one

WHY?! WHY DO I HAVE TO GO THROUGH SO MUCH PAIN?! ALL THESE OTHER PEOPLE LOVE SOMEONE THAT ACTUALLY EXISTS?! WHY AM I SO WEAK WITHOUT YOU?! you were screaming loudly. You were home alone, and crying so hard you thought you may die of dehydration. But that would be ok... you wouldn't mind... something clicked, and you got out a pice of paper and a pen. You started writing.

If you want to find me, go to the top of that hill in the park. I've decided to end my life here, and start a new one. Don't worry about me I'll be fine. And if I'm lucky, with the person. I love. The most. Dad. I love you. But I know what you did to mom. I wanted to tell you because it made me mad. You did a bad thing. You ruined a family you could've saved. But anyways, mail this to mom. Mamma, I love you. I know you won't be very happy about this, but please hang on for a little while longer. Do it for Sister. Papa. Nana. Me. If I'm lucky, I'll be able to watch over you. As a mortal. But I wont be me. But I will be me. If it's true, i can't tell you much more than that. I love you all. Goodbye.

By the time you finished the paper was covered in tears and almost soaking. "I love you. Goodbye."

You took a knife and ran to the park. You went to the hill like you promised. You sat on your knees saying a prayer and saying one last goodbye, you slit your wrist.

"WOW!! Blood, crimson, it really is beautiful. I don't care if I'm punished for this, I want to be with him!" You fell, slumped over, clearly dead. You smiled one last smile.

"Hello, who's there, why is it so dark? Why am I still alive? Or am I?" All the sudden, a stage light, almost, was shining directly on you. You saw the dark figures of what looked like... the shinigami council?!? Its true?

"Hello, ms. ____. If you remember, you have ended your life. I'm afraid you'll have to take that punishment. You are now a shinigami. You will be trained to reap souls. You begin in a few days."

You woke up in a cold sweat. You were dreaming about something.

No, it wasn't a dream. As you looked around, you saw only a blur. Reaching where your nightstand was you hoped someone had left you glasses or something. You picked up something of the sort. When you put then on you could see now, but the glasses were of horrible quality, and they never stayed on your nose. They even wobbled.

Wait, you didn't wear glasses? Why did you need them? You remembered what happened. "HE'S HERE! HE'S HERE I KNOW IT HE'S HERE!" You opened the door to the nurses office, and the nurse tried to stop you but you were running to fast. "HE'S HERE SHOW HIM TO ME PLEASE I NEED TO TALK TO HIM! WHY DO YOU THINK I KILLED MYSELF!?!?

You stopped noticing everyone staring at you. You could hear them whispering things like "isn't she new here?" And "she really shouldn't say such offensive things..." you didn't care.

You fell to you're knees, and kept crying. "Please, show him to me. I need to at least know he's real. PLEASE! ANYONE!?! I need him. Please I need my love... STUPID! saying such stupid things... HES DOSNT KNOW YOU _____ SHUT UP!!"

You started to scream at the top if your lungs.

And at that moment, a certain red head walked in.

"What's going on here?" The red head sees you and walks toward you. "Hello! Who are you, your new aren't you~!" You stop crying and caress his face. He seems shocked, as did everybody else watching. "Grell... you're just as beautiful as people imagined.... you're smile... I went through hell to get to you, put my life on the edge to see if you were real... I KILLED MYSELF GODDAMNIT! By the way, my note, had your name on it..." you instantly passed out in his arms.