My soul refuses(august alsina story)

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"can we go back to the days are love was strong can1 things how it use to  be..oh god give me an answer im down on bended knees......"

"have you loved somebody so much that it makes you wanna break down and cry"

"if your think your lonely now wait a minute this is too deep its too deep is killin my heart so i turned the station tryna catch a break ...but then i heard baby face i only think of you"

"i dont wanna go there ..we should ever ..why we gotta go there ..ig i gotta go there your hearing rummors about me"

i cried for hours listening to these songs i just threw up too times after last week and aug gone say "if yo ass is pregnant it aint mine " thats wat made it really hard for me is that your just gun leave me here with thus baby thats yours so i switched my main office from nola to florida im leaving his ass me and my pooka i packed all my shit while listening to sorry by beyonce aug was on tour so i aint have to move fast he come bck at 12 and ill be far awayyyyyy like beyonce said then my favorite part came on so i sung to it "left a note in the hall way by the time you read it ill be far away far away but i aint fucking with nobody lets have a toast to the good life suicide before you see this tear run down eye me and my baby gun be alright we gun live a good lifeeee ... big homey better grow up me and my woadies bout ta stroll out" by the time i was done it was 12:30am i finished the letter and went on my way  i rubbed my belly and sang "we gon live a good lifee"then smiled driving thru gulfport mississippi by now there was no turning back 😝😀😊

😌august😭
dear august,
well bye the time you read this ill be gon ik you put a tracking device on my car so i bought another one sorry i couldnt take it no more the beating the abuse the cheating lieing dis claiming my chikd knowing it was yours so me and my baby well be ight with outcha ya heard~love cylliah😍

"dammit" i yelled i ran up stairs nothing i ran in the bathroom nothing i ran in the closet all her things were gone i called her phone "the phone you have called is either disconnected" i hung up "shit shit shit " i yelled in fustration  i ran downstairs i grabbed the white substance that got me in this bullshit a sniffed that shit "hy " i yelled as i destroyed the house the i sat on the couch thinkin "i dont need that bitch that aint even my baby or is it " then i start crying i need to get my baby back

😌cy😍
"i wish i wasnt inlove wit you so you wouldnt hurt me " i sang checking into a hotel me and my bunkin got comfrontable in the king sized bed i rubbed my non showing belly and fell asleep...