make a choice (camila/you)

Chapter One / poor child

I have been confused lately?
I don't even know myself anymore
The whole school thinks I'm weird
they look at me weird I have no one by my side but my best friend jade and my biological mother
My dad killed his self my real family doesn't care about me
Not a straight A student anymore
Going to class late lately
Staying in my room just staring at the wall everyday
Not saying a word or start a conversation
I don't have a life I just want to die but I can't no one let's me
"Y/n are you okay?" My best friend jade asked waving her hand front of my face snapping me out of my thoughts
"Yes jade?" I asked without any meaning
"Want me to bring you home?" She asked kindly I just nodded
We both stood up from our chairs and walk out of history class
As I'm walking down the poorly school hallways as usual everyone is sending me dirty looks and pushes me every time they walk past by and I don't even bother to do anything
I'm nothing but a hopeless child
Finally jade and i made it to her car
I open the door and I sat on the passenger seat and jade at the drivers seat
"You know y/n you need to start acting like you have a soul" jade protested
I slowly look at jade sending her a look that she won't understand
I could tell that she was about to break down into tears
Jade is really a good friend
When my biological mother would try to kill me every time jade will pick me up and I'll escape from home
Or when mother left me home while she's getting drunk with her friends she will come and stay with me and support me when I need it
I'm glad to call jade my best friend 'cause she's a good one
"Jade just understand me" is all I manage to say
Jade sign and started to drive off
I look through the window as always watching people with incredible faith
Perfect smile
Having a great time , No farer mistakes
Sometimes I ask my self why does it have to be me but sometimes I ask myself am I learning a lesson or am I not good enough for anyone
The thing is I don't know I'm just a worthy confusion with no feelings
Maybe that's what I want to be for the rest of my life till Jesus finally decided to bring me to heaven
As soon jade park at my front lawn I hugged jade tightly not wanted to let her go "be careful y/n if anything just give me a call alright" she said kindly I smiled sadly and quickly got out of jade car and watch as she drove of
I check creepily through the window of the living room
Mom is not home
That's good I open the door and made my way in
I look around the house and its super quiet I smiled and gently took of my boots and went up stairs to my room
As usual I close my bed room door lock it and sat on my bed staring at the wall with a empty mind
Just staring at the wall
just sitting there without moving
not even a sound

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