Suicidal love (Offendorman X Reader lemon and story)

Chapter 1

You walk to your home, alone once again. You're finally giving up on life and decide it's not worth living. For months you'd been trying to meet new friends, with no avail. Since your best friend had died in a terrible car accident... Life just hadn't been the same. So, six months after her death, here you were. You were walking into your house with one thing on your mind, your gun.
You walk in your house, not bothering to close the door, and walk to your bedroom. In your closet is a safe, containing your method of suicide. You get on your knees, putting your hand to the dial. You quickly put in the combination 04-30-06, opening the safe with ease. You grab one bullet, loading it into your weapon and standing up. You walk to the bed, grabbing a paper and pen. You begin writing your final goodbye.

Dear family,

And friends,

This is,

Where it ends.

Without Lee,

I'm blind,

And happiness,

I cannot find.

I wish I could express my sorrow,

To those of you I wrote,

But now it's to late,

This is my suicide note.

You fold it, carefully setting it on your table before picking up your gat. You place the barrel to your temple and squeeze the trigger.