The Life Line

A/N: hi, im a crap writer. no hate, please. i find updating hard so message me if you want me to carry on. hope you like it!

life is too short to complain so i just hold it all in. Another day a new set of scares and a new leaf ready to fill with hate for others. I hate it, every day is the same, no change. im just stupid little me, the girl who never got a break. i was never popular and never will be, only friends i have are the people who like my singing on you tube, and thats not many. it gives me a little spark of happiness when they say something good but it never lasts long - nothing ever  does ... for me that is.

The only thing that keeps me going is music. i listen to it all day and fall asleep to it. my favourite singers are One Direction they have made me feel beautiful for the the first and only time in my egsistance. i use them to hid for life and fear. they are always there for me - not physically but emotionally. they were here for me when my family wasnt and they never are as they just leave me and never cheack if im okayy or  they yell at me to do things that they cant be bothered to do. 

My grades have dropped like hell since primary school. primary school was the best part of my life i have friends and people who talked to me, but now they have left and ignor me like im a bit of dirt or mud on the ground. i thought they would be my friends forever and i did so much for them - turns out they used me, they didnt give a damn how i felt they smilled around me but i never realised they coppied my work and used my dinner money for drugs and stuff when i thought they werent given any. since i bacame depressed and let down i havent put much effort into school the teachers hate me and dont even ask why im sad or why my levels have dropped dramitically in the last few years. 

so yeah all in all my life suchs and is hell. it has made me feel horid and mean so i let my anger and pain out on myself, ive cut starved and puked to make myself feel better but i feel ever worse as the next day come along. people say things like 'faggot' 'slut' 'fat' 'lazy' 'stupid' and more. they make me feel like a piece of shit. 

i never felt good enough for the world. my family say i was a mistake and now i know i am. Until i get lost in music and then im a whole different person.