My Promiscuous

Chapter 3. His words

Fri/June 13th 2016
I keep thinking back to what he has said to me....
"You have a beautiful body"
"You are very enticing"
"I want you"
"It's hard to control myself with you"
Sat/may 6th 2017
It's been a while since I've written you but a lot of things have been happening lately.
For example last summer was the worst....
Me and Jeremy were skyping in my aunts basement late at night like we'd been doing for 6 months now. We talked about stupid shit and he would give me the occasional compliment. But it was nothing new. A couple weeks go by and it comes up that I actually called him one night of course I had to be drunk off my ass when I did. Apparently a lot of stuff came out. He didn't tell me what I said but he didn't have to. By the tone in his voice I knew. About a week passed and it came out the truth....he had had a girlfriend the whole time. The thought crushed me no shattered me. Everything I told him everything I said everything he said it was all some stupid sham to get some from a younger girl. I felt used and foolish for letting him in. I let him tear down my wall with dirty cheating hands. And I found out because his girlfriend messaged me on instagram, apparently
he'd been denying the whole thing and telling her he had only just started talking to me. I asked her if she was going to break up with him and she said....no. I asked why but never received a reply. So there I was, in shock feeling foolish and used and broken again. It's my fault I let him in. Now all I do is play his words in my head on repeat.
"You have a beautiful body"
"You are very enticing"
"I want you"
"It's hard to control myself with you"
His words, his lies.