Made girl....

Nothing.. nothing...

That i can hear, see nor feel.

I knew i was weak and useless and thought i was in the water in the huge glass. I was right.

One day, I saw a light coming to me something bigger as my size. It was the start of my life.

I began to live today 2000.....

With no name, no gentle yet to be known and with nothing but life within me.

Nobody hate nor love me i knew right away, since nothing will be done if i die. That's what i am. I don't get it but had to understand. I am what my parents call made-human. I was made by my parents, they are scientist and experiment and made me. I was disappointed, shocked and sad to hear it of who i am. I was not perfect nor pretty nor important just like other humans, one of the living creature on earth. I was nothing different from them expect i was made by them not borned by them. Don't be surprised to hear that i had permanent face/expression, I can't be sad nor happy and had no feelings at all but love that was my only feeling that I had. It was the special and most important thing to me. I knew it was such a beautiful thing and warm like a fire that comforted me. Nobody knows this truth expect my parents, the ones who made me/ creator and I, myself the creation. My name is Angelica, my parents named me this because for them the one who gave me my life was God from angel. That's how i got this name of mine. I didn't hate nor love anyone or anything just like other humans. I don't know if my parents loved me as their real daughter with true love as my parents or as creator's love for their own creation. I didn't care since I didn't feel anything for that but feel confused. I am just like others. I eat, drink and live just like them. But I was weak and useless on earth that most of my times I lived until now on earth was in home. I was too weak to strong bacteria and had no strong and healthy cells to defend and protect it, since I was made human. My parents worried about me not being active in school nor home. I was too secretive to anyone even to my parents who made me. I loved more then anyone in Earth my parents and stayed as their cute and good daughter to them. I had a special ability that nobody knows but myself that I can detect and identify love and what types and kinds it is. There is a lot of kinds of loves if you know. I have ablities to know and identify all the loves unlike other normal humans. There is one love called"Iqa" that will last for few months/days/weeks it depends on how well it goes. It's very short love. And there is next called " pure" that this love can be broken into half and remain scars and somtimes it can be forever and ever. It's how important of pure love to us. It can be harm and nice that will last to the end to us. Pure love is the longest love on earth up to now and compared to Iqa it is just one of the shortest love they experience in earth. Love is made by humans who experience different kinds of love in their life on earth. Now I think about it, I was like goddess of love that can break loves and make the loves of the humans. If I make up my mind if I want, I can make a lot of boyfriends and friends as i want but I was not. I was silient in school or was the most silient person in my school or in the world if you know me. That I had to be hidden from the other humans to avoid them knowing my existence as made human for who i am. That was my life in school. I can be mean and kind that's who i am and had to accept, understand and know it. Love is my life energy source. Home is like a prison especially when my parents are out that I don't feel any love that I feel like I went back to the darkness and to the cold when i was dead so I tries to feel love on my own even if its hard to do so as made human and had feelings at all. I can feel love made by humans but can't make love. If i sleep, I always have nightmares about my death times so I don't really like sleeping that much expect for the rest or when I am tired. School is my freedom that I can feel various many kinds of love from many different people that they have their own kinds of love. I enjoy going to school so I rest a lot in home in order to go to school or else I won't be able to go to school since as i told you I am weak. Also tonight, I wait for my parents to come back from the work and feel their loves for me or not as long as i can feel love to live and survive from planet earth...

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Pls understand for the wrong grammars and mistakes. I am amateur so....

Pls comment me for my mistakes or whatever. tnx...