im sorry i didnt hug you before you died and anything else i didn't do for you i cant handle that your dead and i dont want to believe you died grandpa im just not ready and right now i want to kill myself i love you so much and it hurts so badly knowing your really gone and that there is nothing in this world i can do for you or do better because your gone and i dont want to believe your gone and im angry you are because i miss you so badly because i love gramps and i miss you dearly your dearly missed gramps i love you and the other part was we dont even know your real birthday but that doesnt mean i love you less i still love you so much even knowing your gone and im bitter your gone i will miss you grandpa ill miss you grandpa aka gpop love you so much grandpa rest in peace im so bitter about you being gone and i dont want to accept it because i love but i will try smiling just for you gramps you were my world love you.<333 love you