B R O K E N

11.

Braelynn.

After lunch we all went back to Leilani house and the whole ride there I was trying to figure out how I was going to tell everyone that I was pregnant. I was scared and I don't want anyone to be upset of start yelling or anything like that. I sat on the couch, chewing my lip ready to get this over with. I was only 20 and I didn't know if I was ready to have a baby but it was happening. Flash has been through a lot and I don't want my kids to go through the things we've been through. Flash is 23 and he's still trying to figure his life out himself. I didn't wanna fuck things up by bring a child into the world.

I grabbed my phone and facetimed Ariana so she could know like everyone else.

Ariana: Hey buddy

Braelynn: hey you busy?

Ariana: no what's up?

Braelynn: you're about to find out. Okay guys, we need to talk. It's really important..

Everyone looked at me a little uneasy and I took a deep breath. I tried to gather my words before speaking but I just needed to tell them and I didn't have time to plan a speech.

Braelynn: Well I'm pregnant.. Three months, I'll be four months in a week.

Ariana: WHAT THE FUCK!? Oh my gosh, Braelynn! Congratulations!

Leilani; congratulations?! You let HIM of all people get you pregnant Braelynn? Why? You can do so much better. Get you somebody who has something going for them selves not some back up dancer that can barely make ends meet.

Braelynn; Leilani what the hell?! Why would you say some foul shit like that?

Flash: Nah it's okay. She don't know me or what I've been through to judge me. I been through hell and back but that's not gon stop me from making sure my child has everything in this world and more. I'm a back up dancer for Big Freedia and trust me, that pays the bills and makes sure your sister got everything she needs. I make sure the bills are paid and she's fed. Who the fuck are you to judge somebody?!

Leilani; I am Leilani, I have every right to say how I feel. I don't like you and that's that Clarence or should I say Claire? You dance like a fucking girl and I don't want you with my sister or fathering my niece or nephew so do us all a favor and go die or some shit.

Braelynn: Leilani stop it! You're being rude as fuck for no fucking reason. He didn't do shit to you and I didn't flip out when you got pregnant with Dre. I'm a grown up and I can handle myself. I don't need you telling me how to handle myself and who I should or shouldn't be with. I love flash and he's enough for me. Regardless of what you have to say , I'm going to be with him.

Ariana: Leilani go calm down and come back later.

Leilani: No Ariana! I would think you had enough sense not to follow in my footsteps Braelynn. I got pregnant at 19 and we barely made it through that time.

Braelynn: I'm not you Leilani! I have a job and I graduated college. I handled all of my business and I'm happy! I'm done arguing with you about this. What's done is done and I'm not doing this anymore. So when you get the sense to apologize and realize that you fucked up just now let me know but until then we have nothing to talk about.

I grabbed my stuff and walked out the house with flash following behind me. I called an uber and they came quick and dropped us off at the hotel. I was mad and I was hurt at everything that happened just now. I expected more from Leilani, at least some support and I couldn't even get that much.

The uber driver pulled into the hotel and I got out, walking inside. I cleaned up the room before changing into a sports bra and some spanx. I looked at myself in the mirror and I was real life pregnant.

I walked out of the bathroom and climbed in the bed and got under the covers, thinking about everything. Flash went into the bathroom and closed the door and I heard the lock click. I sighed and chewed my lip. This was so much and I didn't expect things to happen this way and it really upset me to be honest.

I looked down at my stomach and smiled some. I rubbed my baby bump and thought about what I was going to say to it. I find out the sex at my next appointment but I'm hoping for a girl.

Braelynn: hey baby.. I'm your mommy and your daddy is in the bathroom right now. I don't know if you can hear me yet but I'm still gonna talk to you anyways. So when you come into this world I'm going to spoil you rotten and you're going to have the world and more. You're going to be so cute baby. I already love you and I haven't met you yet. If you're a girl I might just name you Nova or YaMina. If you're a boy then I'll name you Na'Dravien. I hope you like those names but whatever.

Flash: What if i don't like those names?

I looked up at flash and chuckled a little.

Braelynn: then we have some brain storming to do.

He nodded and laid next to me, playing with my hair. It was silent for a while but I knew that we both had things that we wanted to say.

Flash: We need to talk Brae..

Brae: Yeah, I know. I'm really sorry about my sister she's just over protective and she's been in this position before.

Flash; Don't apologize for her. I've been through hell and back and what she did was wrong but you didn't make her say all of those things. We need to talk about you not telling me you were pregnant. Why? I would've liked to be there every step of the way.

Braelynn; I know and I'm sorry. I was scared and I didn't want to tell you and have you happy just to be let down if something happened to the baby.

Flash: well I wouldn't want you going through it alone. I would've been there for you through everything Braelynn. I deserved to know and you not telling me really pissed me off. I had no family growing up, I was in foster homes. I don't know anybody in my family but my moms and some aunts. I don't know my dad because he died before I was even born. I know nothing about him. I don't want that for my child and you took away me being there from the start of my family. Once you found out, you should've told me no matter how scared you were.

Damn..

Braelynn: I'm sorry Clarence. I can't go back and change it but I would if I could. I didn't know that you've been through so much but so have I flash. I was raped by my step dad along with my sister. I was beat and I was neglected at a young age. My mom was a singer then she retired when she had my brother Andrew. Two years later he died and she told me I couldn't come to the funeral but I still went. She sued me for thing I didn't do. She almost killed Dre before he was born so you aren't the only one that's been through hell and back and doesn't have family. Leilani and Ariana are my only family besides you. So please stop yelling at me and lecturing me because my life was pretty messed up too.

I didn't feel like arguing anymore so I just turned over and laid on my side with my back facing him. He sighed and wrapped his arms around my waist before planting a soft kiss on the back of my neck.

Flash: I'm sorry and I love you.

Braelynn; Me too. I love you too Flash.