Yesterday's Letter

Talk It Over

Harry's P.O.V
I sigh unevenly, looking at the digital clock for the fifth time, it wouldn't be that bad, but it was in a matter of thirty minutes. I looked at Louis who was sleeping soundly, his beautiful sun kissed skin glowing in the moonlight, his long eyelashes so beautiful and enduring, and his pink plump lips which were slightly parted. I noticed these things, because I never thought I loved him this much, I never thought that I would end up hurting him as much as I did, and to be honest I wish the fight we had never happened. Louis meant the entire world to me, whatever I thought was more important was no longer a second thought to me, not when the person I loved was lying right beside me. I rolled over on my side and closed my eyes, soon I was drifting off to sleep.
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I was awoken by the sunlight shinning through the window. My eyes slowly fluttered open and I squinted at the brightness. I rubbed my eyes softly and looked around, no sign of Louis anywhere. His side of the bed was completely made, which was odd considering his slobby personality. I groaned and threw my feet over the side of the bed, soon I'm stumbling out of our bedroom and I'm walking towards the kitchen. There I see Louis. My heart drops as soon his eyes are met with mine.
"Hey Harry." He mumbles. I am unable to speak, afraid to do or say anything, because hurting Louis is the last thing I ever want to do.
"C'mon." He insists. "Sit down with me."
I nod as I walk over to sit down. He looks up at me in defeat, almost like he has lost everything he has ever wanted, and I know it's because of me.
"Louis I-" He shushed me before I can speak another word. I want to apologize, why is he not allowing me to apologize?
"Don't speak Harry." He mumbles softly. "J-Just listen."
I nod in response and look at his expression. Sorrow with a touch of anger. I made him act like this, broken and angered, this was my fault. I have ruined our relationship.
"I...I still love you." He says as he chokes out a sob. My heart breaking at the sight of him. His eyes filling with tears, his lower lip trembling, and as bad as he wanted to he didn't cry.
"You mean the absolute world to me... that will never change... and the fact that I love you... well... that will never change either."
I watch as little tears fall from his precious rosy cheeks and onto the front of his shirt.
"Harry...I don't...I think we need a...a break." He nearly chokes on the last word and I honestly want to cry. I know that this is all my fault. None this is on him. At all.
"A-A break?" I ask as I link my fingers together, nerves definitely on edge.
"Yes babe." He sighs. "At...At least for a little while."
I nod looking down at my hands, there's obviously nothing I can do or say. How could I, Louis had already made up his mind.