So today I want to talk about something, something that I honestly haven't figure out myself really. I look back at around three years ago when I first met my "first love", if I can even call it that quite honestly. He was my first crush, the first guy I have ever felt anything more than "damn he's cute" toward. There's just something about him, something I can't seem to place my finger on. And I know what you are all thinking... shit is this another bad boy story, sorry to break your cliche expectation of me but he was and still is a band geek. He is smart, sarcastic, a big nerd and somehow seem to capture my attention. We became semi-friends; everyday I look forward to our class together simply just to have another stupid bicker with him. The thing about this boy is that he's hot then he's cold. Sometimes we are friends....sometimes it feels more than friends while other time we are strangers. This absolutely fucked me up. His old friends have told me that's just how he is. But me being naive, I thought I was different since he have no problem breaking other girls' heart yet he keep me along...that must mean something right?.... I don't know. I don't know it then and I still don't know it now. All I know is sometimes I still wonder what would've happen if I confronted him about this. Whenever I seem to distance myself...he always come back...to haunt me on what we could've been.
This whole piece of writing is a big mess, just like my crush toward this boy. He made me a big mess...no I made myself a big mess. It has been 4 years since I wrote this, he is now dating his first crush...the girl is definitely not me lmao but I'm happy for him.
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RandomDo you have those questions or dramas that you just need to rant,tell or ask someone but you're afraid of being judge? Or they are too awkward and weird to ask your closest bestie? Girl I feel you and I got you, I was there with the awkward question...
