Warning chapter may be very triggering to some people
Ryder's POV
I was laying on my bed when I saw the box I vowed never to open again.
The last time I touched it was the day I met Matt, he encouraged me to stop cutting.
I wish I got rid of the box and its contents years ago like I promised Matt and my parents.
I opened the box and felt the cold steel against my fingertips as I reached in, I grabbed a blade and ran it through my fingers.
I slid the blade across my wrist and I saw the red liquid seeping out of me. I walked in to the bathroom to retrieve a towel to stop the bleeding. I pressed it against my wrist. When it wouldn't stop, I jumped in the car and drove to the hospital; I knew Matt would be mad at me for breaking his trust, but I had too.
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Matt's POV
I was doing my rounds when "Dr Alaska please report to waiting room number 4". I jogged down to waiting room number 4 knowing it was an emergency. When I walked through the door to waiting room number 4 I saw Ryder with a towel wrapped around his wrist I knew all of the sudden he relapsed.
"Dr, he asked specifically for you" my receptionist said
"Thank you Mary." I replied
I grabbed him by the arm that wasn't cut and dragged him towards the check-up room.
"What the hell is wrong with you!" I yelled
"I'm so sorry I didn't mean to they were just there and I know I fucked up please just forgive me." He spoke quickly and quietly
"Why you've come so far?" I questioned him
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Ryder's POV
Matt just let me leave after he took my blades and flushed them down the toilet.
I walked towards the tattoo parlor and picked out the one I wanted.
Most of the time when I feel like cutting I get another tattoo I have the all over my body there's almost no space left.
I wanted to get one that would cover my scars I decided on one that says past on my wrist with scars and future written on the other.
When Matt found out I got another he was shocked that I would get another tattoo when I'm already covered in them.
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Matt's POV
When Ryder told me he got another tattoo I was confused I didn't think he had any room left on his skin.
"Babe" I called out
"Hello Dean" I replied he rolled his eyes
"Look I gripped you tight and raised you from perdition" he laughed out his sexy laughter rolled through the room
He looked me in the eyes then looked at my lips he quickly rammed his lips on to mine he sped up quickly turning us towards the wall and deepened the kiss we fell over and he laughed.
