I Finally Found You: A Justin Bieber Love Story ****ON HOLD****

Chapter 8: Broken

Then I realized we were close. Super close. He started leaning in and I did to and kissed. I part of me screamed no but I felt like a had to do it. I notice holes burning from the side of my cheek and turn to see justin fuming and shaking with hurt in his eyes he looked...lost. My eyes go wide eyed. "Justin!" I run after him.

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ANNA'S P.O.V

I ran outside after Justin. "Justin wait please?" "WHAT" he screamed. I wanted to cry right there but I held it in. "It's not what it seems! We're friends!" I begged. He scoffed. "Please you left me to go with him!" He shouted. "That's not true! I ran into him at the hotel!" He rolled his eyes "Right..did you fuck him after? Wouldn't be surprised if you did." he smirked. "NO! You asshole!" "You don't love me! How did I out of all people end up with the worst mate anyone can ever ask for? Your just a ugly good for nothing slut! Well guess what I hate you!" He barked. My eyes filled up with tears but I had to be strong and I healed them in. "We aren't even together!" I screeched. He stood there annoyed. "and never will be.." I croaked and ran into the paintball place asking Dylan to bring me home. "I'm so sorry" I apologized to Dylan as we walked into the hotel. "Hey it's alright things happen." I smiled and waved as I walked off to my room. "Call me if you need anything!" He yelled. I chuckled "Gladly" and went into my room and locked the door. I layed in my bed and cried for what felt like hours. How could he just say those things? I thought. All of the things he said to me were replaying in my head like a never ending film. You don't love me! How did I out of all people end up with the worst mate anyone can ever ask for? Your just ugly good for nothing slut! The worst part is little does he know is that I love him. Very Much and to hear your own mate say he hates you and that your the worst mate ever is practically pulling your heart out of your chest and stomping on it, it hurts. I looked in the mirror I have bags under my eyes I look ugly and fat, I wouldn't blame him for not wanting to be my mate. I just kissed another man in front of his face right after he confesses that hes a wolf and loves me. What do I do? I run away.. like a coward. Now I feel like a lost soul, in the shadows, never wanted to be seen or heard from ever again but longing for his love and affection. But now, now it's to late. I'm broken. Unable to be fixed. I looked in the mirror again. "Why am I so damn ugly!" I screeched. I threw a brush on the floor and then picked it up and put it on the counter and one thing caught my eye. Razor. I took it to my wrist with tears streaming down my face. He wouldn't want me to do this right? He hates you! He doesn't want to be your mate! He could care less. That's not true! Of course it is he said so himself! I nodded my head and dragged the razor across my wrist and instantly blood starting oozing from the wound. I did this again and again. I felt my pain go away I felt a burning sensation in my wrist. I took a towel and held in on my arm. I put my hair up and took a shower it was now 4:30 P.M and have nothing to do. I looked down at my wrist and it was no longer bleeding. I cried I can't believe I would take it this far. Then my phone starting ringing silencing me. It was Christian. "Hello?" I said trying to make it seem like I wasn't crying. "Hey Anna what are you doing?" I heard Justin and Ryan talking in the back round. "Yo you should totally just go to the club and fuck someone to get your mind off her" Ryan said. "Totally" Justin said. That's when my breathed hitched and my eyes fill up with tears. I was crying I couldn't help it. How could he just get over his mate so fast? I should assume things but it hurts. "Anna! Hello!" Christian yelled. "What?" "I said do you want to come by the house and move back? Your literally wasting your money on that dumb hotel and run away from everything come back" He pleaded. There was a pause. "Okay" I said. "Really?" He said. "Yea i'll come back tomorrow" and hung up the phone. He right im just going to have to accept the fact that Justin hates me and doesn't want me. Why is love so difficult? Why does my life just have to be so complicated. I shook my head and fixed myself up. Now what to do? I'm in the mood to watch movies and eat strawberry ice cream! That sounds good. I headed out and drove to the store. I got home and did exactly what I wanted which was what movies and eat ice cream. I was watching the Notebook and cried so much and realized it was 7:00!. I want to be there before they wake up cause if justin's there I don't know what im gonna do. I quickly hopped off the bed pack my stuff and knocked on Dylan's door. "Hey" He said. "Hi um I'm going to be leaving and go home now." I admitted. "Oh" He frowned. "Well me house is almost finished so I can see you again!" He said. "Really that's great!" "Yea." "I'm gonna go now I have a long drive." He nodded. "Here let me help you" He took my bags and brought them to the car. "Thank you so much" I said and hugged him. "Don't forget to call me when you get back!" I said as we pulled away. "Don't worry I won't!" He laughed and I giggled. We said bye and he walked off. I got into my car ready for a long drive.