Do you remember the first fight we ever had?
It was 22nd of February. Wondering how I remember the day? Well, that coz I had my first boards exam the very next day. Remember the reason? My name! I still cant believe our first fight was on my NAME! Damn! I bet years from now we’ll be laughing our asses off about it.
I remember that day crystal clear. I remember my feelings, I was so dam scared. So scared that you were upset and wouldn’t come back, so scared to lose it. I sent you an apology letter that night. This is how it went….
“Hey babe….. So, maybe you are still sleeping since you don’t have college… or maybe you woke up early…
Massey Wassey (that’s what I used to call you) I am really truly sorry for what happened yesterday. I honestly didn’t mean to upset you or hurt you in any way! I swear it wasn’t intentional. And honestly? Its killing me to know that youre upset with me.
Baby, it wasn’t your fault, AT ALL. It was completely my fault and I am gonna take its responsibility.
Babe I am soo soo sooooo dam sorry. I know I have said it so many times but I truly mean it. My stupid tantrum had no reasons or excuses, it was totally uncalled for. I am not perfect, hell, I am not even close to it. But you? You are just so amazing, perfect and awesome. I cant even get close to how amazing you are. I know I over reacted and it was such a stupid thing to do. I know I should’ve have over reacted like that and I know its my own stupid fault. I am just so dam sorry Mason!
Its literally killing me to know that you are upset with me. Hell, I cant even fall asleep although its so late and I have been trying to sleep since a couple of hours now but I find my mind wandering off to you. I already miss you like crazy.
Therefore here I am, accepting my mistake and taking responsibility of it; asking for your forgiveness.
Hope you’ll forgive me soon hubby.
I am so sorry.
I love you hubby <3 <3 <3”
That’s what I sent you, a couple of sentences here and there. I know, you might be wondering how do I have this when I don’t have the chats from my side or the first 2-4weeks.
Well, I have it.
Because I spent 2-3hours for it. Yup, that’s right. I know it sounds crazy but you’re the first person I ever gave an apology letter to. There I was, staring at my cell phone with the google page, wondering what the hell should I even type?! Apology letter ideas to boyfriend? Hubby? WHAT?!?! I ended up typing ideas for an apology letter to your hubby.
And it was useless searching. I read so many articles and stuffs but dam, I couldn’t find one good idea to use. So I closed the page and started hitting the pillow in a childish manner. I was so dam frustrated. I didn’t know what was the best way to apologize to you and I couldn’t even fall asleep or study when I had my dam boards for crying out load.
Finally an idea struck me and I got my diary, the one where I usually write my poems and stuffs. (Curious fact- That’s the first diary when I made that pic of our chats during the first month, I sent you the pic a couple of months ago. And that’s the diary where I wrote the thing I had uploaded on my bio for you on our first month anniversary.)
I opened a random page and started writing. Simply writing everything I wanted to tell you and how I felt. After scratching my brains and writing with my brain against my ego that this is the right thing to do, I continued writing. After that, I just chose the lines from that and made a small (okay maybe not small) apology letter, typed it and sent it to you crossing my finger.
