Fallen~GerIta

Chapter sixteen

I headed back home once I noticed the sun setting.

I put my hands in my pockets nervously and tried smiling.

It didn't work.

I kicked some rocks away and felt terrible, and I didn't even do anything!

All I was trying to do was tell him thr- okay, well, two technically, and words that he might even say back!

Ti Amo.

How is that so hard?

It isn't! So I should-a stop worrying.

I have to do it. I know I can!

I marched down the block, and admired the nature around me for a moment until I shook my head and became solid.

For literally, the first time in my life.

This was-a big deal!

I walked back up to his familiar door, and took a deep breath.

I opened it and walked over the threshold to find him sitting on the couch reading the newspaper.

I giggled quietly and toughen myself up.

"D-Doitsu?" I ask deflating and nervous.

Talk about tough, huh?

He looked up and studied me, "Ja?"

"T....Ti....." I tried to say.

He became confused, "Are you okay Italia?" He asked.

"Ti....." I tried saying again.

"You seem nervous. Iz zhere somezhing vrong?" He asked.

"Amo....Ti..." I kept stuttering like a loser.

"Amo? Vhat?" He asked surprised.

"TI AMO!" I yell quickly and cover my mouth.

Everything went dead silent after that.

He watched me with a deadpan expression, clearly surprised and obviously shocked.

I stuttered, trying to find my words.

He was doing the same.

I sighed and grabbed my white flag, "I'm-a sorry, Doitsu...."I murmured and ran out the door.

"ITA-" I heard him say.

But I was already gone.

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I hadn't grabbed my bags, I didn't have any money, so I was just stuck.

I was running down the street, embarrassed and crying.

I dared to look back, and I saw him running after me with a angry expression.

I continued to run and I lead him to a park, where I felt like collapsing.

I ran across the park, and found a large Pine tree,where the branches grew on the trunk.

So I dove under it and covered my mouth with my hand.

Germany ran past and stopped for a moment ahead.

I wiped away my tears as fresh ones fell.

His reaction....was scary.

I was hoping he'd only give me a sad look and say he didn't love me, that would have hurt less.

I think.

I saw him run foreword and out of sight.

I crawled out from underneath and burst into tears.

I covered my face and whimpered as I walked away, and I didn't even check behind me if he saw me or not.

He didn't.

I walked back to his house holding myself as I looked down the whole time, as I felt my world around me starting to fall.

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I packed up as quickly as I could, and I collapsed on the bed in a fit of tears.

I buried my face in a pillow and shook.

I was both Physically and Emotionally tired, yet I had to leave or he'd be back soon.

My world had finally fallen.