Happily Alone (A Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Kindergarten

I was never really the person to express myself out loud. If anything, I could only be my true self when nobody is around. I tend to push those who care about me the most and I give too much to those who hurt me. I'm alone; but at least I can feel safe and not have to get judged by everyone else.

"Alyssa! Wake up, WAKE UP! You've gotta get ready for your first day of school, honey!"

"Mommy, I don't want to go. I'm scared that I won't like it." I responded while covering my young self with my blanket and turning around to face the opposite side of my mom.

"Honey, come on, it's going to be great! Imagine all the friends you're going to make today in kindergarten and all the fun you'll have!" My mother pleaded while trying to get me out of bed.

I turned 5 years old on May 16th 2004 and it was the year I was told by many that I was going to begin my journey of something called "school." My family told me it was going to be so much fun getting to learn new things and make some friends! But somehow, the more they told me about it, the more I got scared of going.

I've never had a friend that was my age since I was the only child in my entire family. I had no cousins near my age or any kids that lived around my block. All I was used to being friends with was my mom and other family members that were three times my age. I didn't grow up playing with dolls, hide and seek or play house but I did a lot of drawings and paintings that helped me pass time. Growing up, I got more used to being by myself and it was never a problem but when someone tries to be my friend and make me open up to them, I would only struggle.

"Honey, please get up. Give this day a chance and if you want, I will take a day off to drive you to school and I'll stay until you feel comfortable on your own."

"You'd do that mommy?" As I slowly took my face out of the blanket and turned towards my mom.

"Yes sweetie, I'll do anything I can to make sure this day will be the greatest for you so that in the future, you can treasure these memories!"

My mom was that type of parent who has treasured every single moment of my life ever since I was born. She recorded my first walk, my first words... my first of literally everything! She would always carry her video camera and whenever I did something, she would start recording. I mean, she's been doing that since I was just born so I saw it as something normal and I never did mind it.

"Ok mommy, just for you I'll go to kindergarten." I said while getting up from bed and having my mom pulling me in for a sweet hug.

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"Here we are Alyssa! Springdale Elementary." My mother exclaimed while pulling in the front parking lot and looking at me through the rear view mirror of the car.

I then turned my face towards the window and that's when I saw all these kids that were my age walking inside the school with their parents. They looked so happy and seemed so eager to get their parents to leave so that they could makes some new friends. It's like they weren't even a little bit scared or even a bit hesitant of what they were walking into.

"Darling, are you ready to go?"

"Yes mommy... Can I bring Sofie the tiger with me?"

I've never gone anywhere without Sofie the tiger. She's a little bit worn out since I've had her ever since birth but to me, she was very special since she's always there to make me feel better whenever I was sad.