The calm before the storm

Chapter 2

Vashti

Dinner was quiet as i expected it to be & now we were watching a movie. I was partially over the situation but cardi holds on to shit. Even the ride to go get his car was quiet. I glanced at him he had his head leaning on his hand & looking in his phone. So I took it out his & climbed on top of him straddled but him being the ass he is moved his head around.

" what Giselle " he said still looking at the t.v. That's another reason why I knew he was still mad, he only called me by middle name when he was serious.

" I'm Sorry ok, I just..i just wanted to you to see from my view & you know i didn't mean anything negative by it. I love kyla like she was my own,I don't want be just a just a baby mama. I wanna have a husband , and a real family. You don't don't want that because you've brought up a baby but never once said anything about getting married. I want more than that cardi. If that's too much for you then let me know "

" so now you Tryna leave me,? Vashti you always be so quick to call someone out dey problems . How bout you stop runnin from yo problems and deal wit da shit. You had problems wit yo mamma and you fuckin left thinkin-"

Before I knew it I had slapped him right in the face , I've never been a violent type of girl but he just really went there .

" first of all my mother ABANDONED me, I had nowhere else to go but my grandmother , so you don't talk to me about running from my problems. Secondly that don't have a damn thing to do with what's going with US. I've been dealing with problems damn near my whole life. So you can politely take this fuck you however you like" I said and got off him making my way to his room to pack a bag . I grabbed whatever I saw nor evencaring if it matched , Tears forcefully made there way down my face which pissed me off even more because I shouldn't be the one crying.

" bae...look I'm sorry aight. I just felt like you was Tryna come at me on some disrespectful shit. You know I luh you, "

" mhmm" I pushed passed him ignoring him calling my name . I grabbed my keys and made my way to the car. Before i could open the door to bet in , cardell was block it with his arms.

" whea you goin bruh , I said I was sorry . Why you trippin,?"

" I just wanna get away from you for a minute."

" but why? Baby I'm sorry , i can't let you drive off knowin you mad at me. Im sorry mama "

I looked at him seeing nothing but complete bullshit written all over his face. Usually this is the part where I fall that look he gives me but this time I didn't. Why I don't know, I was just over all his antics right now.

" you know what I notice about you , every time I get mad at some shit you do or say. It's always babe I'm sorry , or babe you bein so over dramatic or I'm drippin ova nothin. You may not feel like it's nothing but I do. I'm so tired of babying you and putting how I feel to the side. Let me be over dramatic , I want somebody that's actually going to care about how I feel and apparently that's too much for you right now cardell. Call me when your ready to my my boyfriend and not an insensitive Jackass " he starred at me & finally moved to the side

" G....I'm sorry...I didn't know you felt that way...take all da time you need...jus...please come back ta me mama"

" Ill think about it" I got into my car not even looking in his direction. I buckled up and made my way out of the drive way. I looked into my rear view mirror and I could still see him. Lord knows I love that man but sometimes I just feel like I need more...which is crazy because he does literally everything I ask him to. Any & everything , we hardly argue & sometimes I find myself treating & talking to him so bad. And the takes it....but I guess we've been together for so long neither one of us can walk away

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" hmmm , so what did he do this time "

" same bull shit . But this time I honestly feel like it was my fault. I feel like I went to far"

" you always say that every time you come V. Now usually I would automatically take yo side cause you my cousin, but I can't cause both of y'all equally wrong. But it's not really that big of a issue for you to just up and leave ...so what's really going on with you"

This is exactly why I came here , because I know my cousin will probably be the only one to see or know it's a deeper issue.

" I don't know denesia ...sometimes I feel so bored. "

" bored with what,?"

" my relationship..work , my life period . I feel like I've been settling . Like i need more excitement or something but I don't know what it is...."

" V your like what ,? 22, your still young . Still finding yourself and figuring yourself out...you need to be your butt back in school instead of giving all your life to that damn hotel. Use that certification you got from that job Corp school."

" that's not what I wanna do nene .... I make more than I do now than I would as a nursing assistant. I just.. I don't know .." I took a heavy breath & fell back into the blush sofa in my cousins living room.

" well as for tonight I can tell that we're going out. I got invited to a party , so that's less you have to stress about lil cuz. Go get dressed my girl"

" honestly, I'm not in the mood to do really do much. I just wanna lay down & watch a movie or something

"Hmmm , well I wasn't asking you "

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Cardell in the media