No To LOVE

HIDE AND CRAP

   "Umalis kana!! Hindi ka namin kailangan ng anak mo! Hayop ka magsama kayo ng babae mo at wag na wag ka nang babalik" galit na galit na utas ni mom kay dad, hangang ngayon gising na gising parin sa memorya ko ang tagpong iyon ng aking buhay that is the last time that I ever saw dad, nakaharang ako sa labas ng pinto akmang pipigilan sya, tinignan Nya akong may awa sa kanyang mata,

Please don't say it dad, please don't,

"I'm sorry my princess"

I hate the word sorry ever since, not that I'm perfect but I strive to be one, sorry is a statement of loss, it is the epitome of the words hurting and loneliness, the word that accepts failing, sorry can't solve shits and all,

"I hate you dad!! Don't you ever come back to our lives" and yes that wounding words fall to my 10 years old mouth, and lastly

" I hate all men!screw you all"

and I felt my mom hugging me through my back

" baby everything will be alright, we can do this baby we are strong! Tayo nalang mag ka-kampi dito sa mundo, hinding Hindi kita iiwan"

"Liar!! Mom you lied to me!"

I can't contained my tears while I'm looking at mom's grave, yes we fought loneliness for years, but I guess we became defeated again, after all we are.

I am seventeen year's old now and I no longer have what we called family, at the age of 14 I was trained to be as good as mom when it comes to business, I thought that when you have all the means in the world, magiging masaya na, our company grew so much in this past years and I am proud that I'm one of the keys to its success, pero lahat ng iyon gusto ko nang talikuran when my mom died in a tragic plane crash, it was the first time that I feel so hopeless, but suddenly naisip ko agad yung kumpanyang pinag hirapan namin, this is the last thing that has all the memories of my broken family, I need to fix myself, I need to be more successful, Baka sakaling makuha ko ang kaligayan ko dito, I'm gonna move forward and I'm slaying them all.