If There Is No Us

My Life

See look I'm not a spoiled rich kid. Everyone expects me to act like one.
My life was a good life before Sam.
I've worked for everything I call mines well accept for the house and car but still they're mines.

Now I'm a mess. Should I be scared or fight back? Why does he even want me? He has ruined my life. My happiness. I need him. He's all I have. He's.....a sick bastard. He's nothing . I need to get away from him.

I'm so confused by myself and emotions.

I was happy before and after him why did I let him back into my life

Because you love him he is yours. He will always be yours no matter what. You need him.
A random yet small voice in the back of my head would say.
I hated that small voice.
Because I didn't want him to be mine I wanted to escape.
I need to escape from this.

But he loves you and you love him why would you abandon love stupid no one loves you but him!
There it goes again I don't need him......or do I? He cheated on me he hurt me.........but he came back to me.....he loves me