Im in Love With My Bully (bxb)

Chapter 2 (not edited)

So today is my first day back to school and I'm extremely scared. I'm hoping that Kyle isn't there. He's always bullying me because of my sexuality. I hate it. There's a whole bunch of gays at my school but yet he continues to bully me. I just don't understand why me out of all people. Anyways... I was walking down to my locker when out of nowhere a tall and muscular jock bump into me "watch where you're going shit- well well well look who it is. If it isn't the little faggot". I knew what ever was about to happen was not going to be good. "BOOM".  It felt like all my bones had cracked in all different places. I heard the chuckles of the jocks that surrounded him. I left my head down, not llooking up at anything or anyone. Just staring at my wrist. I had a sudden urge to cut. I finally had the strength to pick my head up and look around making sure I was in the clear before I met the blade and my skin once again. I looked Left, and right. I didn't see anything. Good the hall was clear. I took a plastic baggie out of my side pocket. Inside of that bag was a blade. I pulled the blade out of the baggie and threw the baggie on the floor next to me. As the blade was about to pierce into my skin another time, reality hit me. I remember a whisper in my ear. To be exact it was a low deep voice saying "i'm  so sorry". I was quickly snapped out of my thoughts when I heard footsteps running towards me. I release of pain hit my arm body. I hadn't realized that I had accidentally slit my arm while rushing to put the blade back into the bag and into my pocket. I looked up to see my worst nightmare. Or at least I think it was him. I really don't know. Everything was such a blur. I think I may have slit my wrist a little deeper then I.... thought.... I.... Did....  I had drifted off into an unconscious state.  

Kyle's P.O.V

" Bro, did u see what Kaila had on today"? " Nah I wasn't in first period, but i'm sure she was looking all that and sum else" " lol... of course. She had on a red- v-neck crop top, and white leggings with ho- SHIT!! watch where your going shit- well well well look who it is. If it isn't the little faggot. "Hey didn't you say that if you seen this fag again your were going to give him a "special gift"? "Oh yea" I felt really bad because I didn't want to hurt him because it doesn't make any sense to bully him because he's gay. I'm gay to but my friends are homophobic and I didn't want them to know about me so I just play it cool.  BOOM " im so sorry" I whispered in his ear as I threw him into the locker, then left as he quickly and I'm sure painfully, fell to the ground. Every time I hurt him it hurts me. I don't like him like a crush, but I know what he's going through. Especially being a gay teen these days. After that incident I walked off with Jeremy like nothing ever happened. I had a strong feeling of guilt in me. It felt like a pit at the bottom of my stomach.  This is sooo gonna effect me the rest of the day.