Unloved

part One

"Thanks for tonight emma ;) had a lot of fun with you,go over to Chads place tomorrow night okay? He was expecting you tonight but i couldn't let him touch such a precious girl like you before me hahaha"
"Its Amanda actually, i had alot of fun too and sure don't worry about it"
"I knew that Hahaaha
I have to go though my wild one see you around i guess"
As i watched him walk out door i lit a deadly cigarette and pressed it between my lips counted the money he left me and laid naked over that cold bed i sleep on with men who don't even know my name.
I dont really care about my life,health or anything like that i just dont care this world is too cruel for good people with loving hearts who care about everyone and everything and i am definitely not the emotional crying type of girl i was always emotionless as if i didn't have a heart sometimes i even put my cold hands over my broken heart to see if its still beating or if it's still there...it always is but it doesn't feel like it somehow.
I got up from my bed and put on my clothes went down to the kitchen made a nice nuttela sandwich for myself turned on the tv and jumped on the couch like a little kid...
My favourite episode was on "game of thrones" godddd im obsessed with it its just so gooddd
Suddenly i got a call from an unknown number
"Hello who's this"
*heavy breathing*
"Hellooo??"
"emm....is this aman...amanda!??"
"yes this is she, whos speaking?"
"it's me....lilly....your mother"
" owww ahhahaha its been a long time i havent heard your voice getting hard for me to recognise it okay so what do you want my dear mother"
"Amanda please...im sorry im really sorry my child just come back home you've left us for 4 years now you made your point you really did....we get it we hurt you now please come back baby...come back to us"
"Awww mother im sorry for leaving but im surprised you haven't gave up i mean wasn't 4 YEARS!! a sign of (Im never coming back)?"
"Amanda please where are you I'll come and get you"
"No mother its too late just know that i never left you guys YOU left ME for 14 years you abandoned me for 14 years i watched you guys give all the love i deserved to a girl i called my sister for 14 years you locked me in my room for not being good enough for 14 years i stayed at a house that wasn't even close to a home for me
For 14 damn years mother!!for 14 years you gave me nothing but pain and hate i was unloved mother,i was unloved by my own family!!
im a grown women now i don't need you or anyone to shed tears for me or feel sorry for me stay out of my life like you did all those years stop calling me and stop trying to find me goodbye lilly"
I hung up the phone and the last thing I heard was "HES GONE AMA...."