Keira (Discontinued For Meanwhile)

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"Ķəıřå!! Ğəť ýøűř fűćķıñğ bűťť űp!! Ýøűř łåťə!"
My eyes open before my brain knows what is going on, other than the door sounds like it will cave in at any moment. My white walls welcome me to a new and detestable day. Ready to tear me apart from the seams.
"I'm up! I'm up!"

"Ğəť űp åñđ řəåđý!"

"Ok, ok. I'll be right there!" I lay my head back down and shake it side to side in disarray as I hear her vilently stomp away. I reach over to see what what time it is on my phone.  8:14 AM  God. I was supposed to get up at 6:30 AM. School already started at 7 o'clock.
"Damn." I stand up and grab what ever clothing is around and most likely clean. And slip them on and go through the my daily routine.

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In the car  I just watch the woods pass by as my mom's voice trails off in the background. I let my mind wander into a calming silence of the leaves rustling  and the tires rolling on.
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Once the school slowly rolls into view I can feel my stomach turning as if it was my first time going to it. I glance over at the cars time and it says it's 6:48 AM  obviously very off. I get out as my mom tells me to run so I don't miss to much. I walk in, get my tarty slip, and slowly walk to my math class.
As my teacher ~~ on about something math related, I listen to the others behind me. Talking about me. How they know I never pay attention but I get decent grads. They must look over my shoulder to see my grades when they are passed out. They think it's unfair.
"Don't mind them keira, they are young and dumb. Their grades are bad." A soft voice interrupts my concentration.
"Well, well, well. How have you been lately?" I ask back in my head so I didn't seem crazy.
"Fine thank you. Happy birthday by the way."
"I guess u can say that."
"Well, I hope it gets better for you."
"Me too."
"They are going to have a test tomorrow."
"Cool, you'll help me again right?"
"Of course, you have other things to worry about now."
"What do u mean?."
"Soon keira, soon."

I can feel a confused look crawl up on to my face and stay there for a while. Until I notice it and fix it right away as the bell rung and I poped out of my set and took all of shit for papers off my desk and speed walked to the door.

"8uddy 8-8oo!!" Screamed a voice from the crowd barely reaching me.
"Hay, Fae." Once I finally reach her and follow this humman, "How are ya girllly?"
"Well, so far I'm pretty good, Geramy  asked me out again."
"If you need me to teach him a couple things about how to treat a lady I can."
"Nawww, its fine. 8ut thank you 8oo."
"Alright, but always know that I'm here ."
Fae leaded me right to the classroom, I swear tho, without her I would have no idea where I was going.
"I know, and thank you for that too, how are you lately?"

We could talk for days. She was always so nice and kind. But it wasn't like those people that only let you talk or that do all the talking. Though she does have a studer sometimes, I think its cute.

"Anyway, we 8etter pay a-attention. Or you can draw your weird drawings."
"What?" My face looks shocked. I never knew how closely she watched me.
"You like, never pay attention, all you do during class is draw weird drawings."
"Hahaha," My voice seems to travel on as I ink about what I've drawn and what she might have seen to call them weird. "I have to go." I say as I get up with my note pad and pencil.
"Whëŕë đô ýôų țhīņķ ýôųŕ ğóîňģ?"
"8ro! W-where are you g-going?!?"

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I scribble so hard that I'm sure my pencil was about to go through the page. Manly just dark scribbles... no real meaning, I just needed to feel the pencil move and wright under my hand. It takes me away, not a happy place, just away. So I can focus on the noise and the feeling in my hand. Most of the pages were just black with lead scribbles all over the pages. About 1/2 of them now.

It helps me.
Heals me.
Kills me.
Is me.

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