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He had 100 reasons for not staying in this relationship And I just had one. That I love him like anything . At night 12:00 am I got a text message "its not working my past is really hurting me .im sorry to hurt u .its over"
I had no words my body got numbed and heart was pumping so fast as if it would burst. I cried made cuts over my arm even thought to suicide . I had no clue what to do I was really feeling incomplete .i texted him "I'm sorry plz come back , my life is impossible without you" he replied "I'm sorry I can't, this relation is not working we fight daily , we don't have time for each other" my X has hurt me soo much that I'm not able to continue this relation. I'm scared of getting hurt again ,I'm scared of getting cheated , i don't wanna get serious again which I was getting for you". I prayed plz bring him back to my life .3 days passed I used to call and cry for him ,beg him to be in this relation he always refused . 5th day he called and said listen we should cut off properly cause it's being difficulty we both should forget each other and move on in life. I didn't even uttered a word and I canceled the call. That time I felt he had no feelings for me but then I thought if he had no feelings why he used to talk late night when he really wanted to sleep. At that time I named my life as confusion.i really didn't knew what to do I can't even share such problems with my parents . The hurt was killing me from inside .

god plz help me it's being difficult for me to live .the person I love has left my life .the person I loved to be with has left my life.the person I loved the most more than myself has left my life. The person I wanna grow  old with has left my life .The person I prayed for has left my life .god plz bring him back to my life cause it's being pretty difficult for me to live cause i feel I have already experienced the presence of hell . I know this is my karma . But I never learned how to cure my mistakes  .oh god plz teach me how to get rid of it.plz bring my love back to me.

I started feeling,he was going far away and one day it went soooo far that he didn't wanted  to come back .i still wait for him ,cry for him.i have never felt this pain before as I felt when he left me. I daily open my book of love and then close it cause I dnt  want anyone to come inside except him .i still wait for him and I hope one day he will come back to me.

My prayers are still on and I hope he comes back to my life . It's almost 10 months I have been waiting for him. I don't know weather he has moved  on or not but I wish he hold my hand again hug me as tight as he can and never leave me till I die.
I learnt that at some point you have to realize that some people can stay in your heart but not in your life.

A lover❣