I'm 14 years old and I'm going through some difficult things in my life . For starters my moms at the point in her life where she could die . I love my mom so much and I don't want her to die , my dad died when I was seven and if my mom die ion know who would support me and encourage me to do better . So now I'm sitting here crying my eyes cause to be honest ion know what's gone happen next if I lose both parents my wouldn't be complete . I'm now sniffling trying to stop crying but I can't . Also my brother is moving out and I love my brother so much he's like a father to me cause I never really had one . My Brother Has Been My Rock Since Day 1 ( What Would I Do If He Left ?) Also My Sister Is Moving Out Next Week I Also Love Her To . By Now Im In The Bathroom Wiping My Face Trying To Cover Tears .
2 Days Later
After I've Stop Morning Over My Mom. I've Got Another Problem My Dimbass Brother . This Dumbass Just Heard Me Say Im Not Feeling Good Dont Touch Me. He Still Comes To play So I Pushed Him & He Came Back And Picked Me Up against The Wall By My Shirt . && Then I Got Down And Picked Me Up And Threw Me On The Bed && He'll Nah It Won't Going Down Like Dat . so I Pushed His Ass Again Then He Gone Push Me Into A Chair And Made Me Stomp My Toe . I Hate Him
By Now It's Midnight And My Mom Is Cooking Dinner But Im Not Sure What ! I've Now Ate Im Now Just Sitting Here Reading This Book .
It's Actually A Good Book It's Called My Life . But Whatever I've Now Started To Relax And Lay back In The Bed And Think Of All Of The Messed Up thing I've Did In life Ion Know Anout You but Im Scared To Die They Say " If You Scared To Die Then You Ain't Living Right " And God Knows I Ain't Living Right .
Next Day
Now Im Sitting Here Woke For No Reason So I Get Up And got Take A Shower Thenput On Some Pink Sweats
, My Pink Victoria Secret Shirt And Some Pink And Black Low Top Addidas . I'm Now Walking Around The House Clueless Until Somebody Calls Me
It Was My Sister Regia , So We Talked And Talked For Ours About Nothing Then Me And Her Decided To Go To The Mall . So I Got The Keys And Hoped In My Car I'm Now On My Way To The Mall
Then Y Song came On "royals"
I Sing Along
I Never Senn A Diamond In The Flessh . I Cut My Teeth O....
I'm Now Quiet Waiting For The Song To Go Off Then "Drunk In Love"
Came On
I Been Drinking , I've Been Drinking
Then I Arrived At The Mall I Hoped Out Ad Walked in Right Away I Grabbed This Sexy Ass Light-skinned Boys Attention But You Know Me aim Gone Play Hard To Get So I Kept Walking Straight To Forever 21
I Had Now Started To Pick Up clothes And go In The Fitting Room
Then I Looked Out The Corner Of My Eye And Saw That Sexyass LightSkinned Boy He had Came In There And Looked Around Then spotted Me But I Was Standing In the Mirror Looking At The Way The Jeans Fitted Me . But Then Outta Nowhere That Skinned Boy Said I Think You Should Buy Dem I Like The Way They Fit . I Turned Around And Said Excuse Me . Then I Saw Regia We Hugged Each Other ' Adored Each Other Then' laughed .
WeWee Now Just Walking Around The Store Looking For Some cute Clothes So I Purchased My Clothes And She Purchased Hers Then we Went To The Next Store . wwe've Arrived At Claire's Now To Buy Her Daughter Some Assesories
She Bought Her Daughter
A hello Kitty Watch
Sunglasses
A ipod Case And More
After She Purchased Her Stuff We Went To The Food Court && I Saw Dat Sexy Ass Light Skinned Nigga Again . This Time I Was Sure That He Would Ask Me What My Name Is "I Walked To The Drinking Machine " as I Pushed My Cup Against The Push Button Mtn Dew Poured In To My Cup . By Now That Sexy Ass Light Skinned Boy Was Standing Beside Me. He Looked Me Up And Down And I Did The Exact Same Thing To Him . After We Basically Had A Staring Contest He Asked Me What's My Name " I Replied" Arizona ' Arizona Wilkins ' That Was Akward And He Replied My Name Is Denzail ' Denzail Williams
Then I Had Finished Getting My Soda And Walked Away I Noticed He Watched Me As I Walked Away Then He Said ' He Love To Watch Me Leave Then I Winked At Him And Stuck Up My Middle Finger " Then He Whistled"
I'm Now Sitting Back With Watching Her Eat . As I Reach To Get One Her Fries She smacks My Hand As I Look Around As Im Appeased To Why She Smacked My Hand . I Lean In And Ask Wtf She Smack My Hand Like I'm 3 .Then She Said You Were To Busy Staring In Mrs.cupid You Didnt Get No Food " Whose Fault Is That ??"
I Shrugged And Just Got Up And Walked To The Chinese Place To Order Me Some Food I Ordered
2 Egg Rolls
2 Chucken Wings
And A Hi - c
Yea. I Eat like A Little Kid Im Not Shamed After I Ordered I Saw That Denzail Boy Again And He Said You Want Me To Pay For That I Said Nah And Looked At Him Ignorant Way
He Started To Grin
" The Chinese Lady Said"
Hea Go Yo Food Maamm
The Total Was 11.50 I Reached In My Pocket To Get The Money Then He Stopped Me And Paid Before I Could Say Anything Then I Grabbed My Food And Walked Away He Followed Hol'up Ma You Can't Go I Paid For Yo Food For Reason
Then That Set It Off
I Said Ion Know The Hell You Talking To Because I Never Insisted on you Paying For My Food Second Of All I Hate When Men Think I Owe Them Something Just Because They Did One Little Petti Thing For Me No Dont Do That Shit "
He Said Woah Ma Im Just Playing
"I Stood There"
Then He Grabbed Me By My Waist And Leaned In To Whisper Something In my Ear . " He Said ' I Know You Want Me Stop Playing " I Just Grined And Walked Away
