anorexia // t.h.

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As we drove away from Starbucks, I was still thinking about Kelianne. How could I forget about her? I mean I would have remembered her. God, I feel like Dory in Finding Dory and Finding Nemo. I have short term memory loss. Except it's not short term, and I don't even know if I have memory loss!

"KACY!" I swerved right immediately. I gasped. I breathed heavily as I just 'saved' us from crashing.

"Are you okay? I should drive." Lillian said, in concern.

"No I'm okay- it's okay." I stammered,"We'll be late for school."

"First period doesn't start yet. We still have 30 minutes. You lied to them didn't you?" Lillian said

"Yes! Of course! I didn't know what to do. It was too awkward." I exclaimed.

"Hey, I don't know if you noticed or not, but Tayler was totally checking you out." She said with sass.

"Noo, I didn't notice. Of course I noticed. It was fucking awkward." I said, as I parked the car.

We both got out of the car, and walked to the entrance of the school. There we saw Bryce and Mark. Yeah yeah, they're 'famous' but hey, they're my best friends so.

"Hey Bryce is checking you out." I whispered in Lillian's ear
She blushed,"Shhhh..." she said, whilst putting her finger to my mouth

Basically, what's happening is that cliché ass situation where they're best friends but they both have feelings for each other but are too afraid to tell each other. They both told me. I'm that trust worthy friend. *smiles and puts both thumbs up*

"Hey guys" I greeted, hugging both of them.

"you guys ready to graduate?" Mark asked.

"ugh don't even talk about it." Lillian said

"You ready to be by yourself?" I said sarcastically.

Mark put on a 'sad' face and looked down. I laughed at him.

"ohhh baby, come to mommy" I said, giving him a hug, while I messed up his hair.

"ugh god Kacy. Really?!" he said.

We all walked to our lockers.
Our lockers are all close to each other.
Bryce is three down from mine, Mark is two away from Bryce and Lillian is next to me. We all then walked to our first class of the day. Mark and I were in the same class. Bryce and Lillian were in the same class too. Mark and I giggled as we saw Bryce and Lillian start laughing hysterically.

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SKIP WHOLE SCHOOL DAY... COS NOTHING EXCITING
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oh god finally school is done. During free period, I talked to Kelianne. I told her that I would be graduating tomorrow and invited her.
Which she said she would go.
she may have also said that Tayler has an 'interest' in me. 
I can't even think of a guy thinking I'm attractive. Well except this year. I was extremely fat. Then I was anorexic. Until I almost died. As much as I wanted to die, I didn't wanna leave my family and my friends. So instead of being anorexic, I became fit. Ate what I needed to eat, and just exercised.
I learned that meeting other people's expectations isn't much of an accomplishment. It just brought you down. Because it makes you realize it's not what you want for yourself. It's what people want for you. And you put people's expectations and opinions first before yours. What's more important is what your opinion is. You have to meet your expectations. Not other's.

Okay enough of this pep talk. But I hoped it helped you. ugh god. I'm hungry. That's not surprising at all though.

"LILLIAN" I yelled through the house