white roses.

chapter 1

Lauren's POV

"Dinah, no shut up!" I said while Dinah, my best friend, was teasing me about the girl I've liked for 3 years now. Her name is Camila Cabello, she's absolutely beautiful, I love how her hair falls, her hips, don't even get me started on her smile, I basically love everything about her. She has recently came out, and Dinah has been teasing me non stop to ask her out. See the thing is I've never talked to Camila, I've always been so nervous. I'm scared that well she's scared of me since everyone says how "intimidating" I am. She's dorky and popular, I wouldn't even think of talking to her.

"Lauren look she's right there!!" normani said loudly

"mani can you please shut the fuck up" I said popping a grape into my mouth and hiding in my palms. I love my friends but I swear sometimes they can be annoying. I un-buried my face slowly and saw the girl of my dreams coming to the table I was sitting at. I stood straight and fixed my shirt. I smiled. I swear I could stare at her for hours. She smiled slightly at me and waved, I waved back with hesitation. I swear I almost had a heart attack, so many thoughts were running through my mind. what could this mean?!

"did you see that?!" I said excitedly, bringing my hands up to my face, feeling my cheeks.

"yes laur, we saw" dinah said while rolling her eyes while mani just giggled.

"God! you guys just don't get it!" I said getting frustrated. As I said that the lunch bell rang rang meaning I had to go English, my favorite class. I knew today was a free day in that class, meaning we could do whatever. Of course I'm thinking of writing in my journal, it's my favorite stress reliever and feeling saver.

"bye guys see you later" I waved to my friends going to dance class together.

I walked into English, the jocks throwing their footballs across the class, cheerleaders talking about a new routine, the geeks talking about an upcoming math test, and well me just trying to find my seat. Walking through this mess called a class. I said hi to my teacher mrs cindy.

"hi lauren, how's your day?" she asked

"it's great, how about you mrs cindy?"

"it's going good so far, are you going to enter in the writing competition?" she asked, I was hoping she wouldn't ask. I always have entered since the second grade but this year I wasn't feeling it. I didn't want to let her down though since she's always bugging me about it.

"I'm thinking about it" I nodded

"good Jauregui, I'm expecting a lot from you"

With that I sat in my seat, setting my books on my desk first. Mrs Cindy walked to the front of the class going on and on about her weekend, while I played with a pen and got distracted in my thoughts.

I can't believe Camila said hi to me today, God I can't get over her smile and the way she walks from side to side, ugh!!! I wish I could just look at her all day. wish I could look at her all day?? I mean I could, I totally could. I could follow her to her house and watch her all day if I wanted to. Lauren, that's one of the best ideas you've had. I'll cancel plans with mani and Dinah. I'm sure I'll be fine, camila won't find out. right?