Cross Paths

Your in front of me once again
I thought I had finally forgotten you
I guess I never did
I loved you from the very start
But never admitted it
I saw where it was heading and pushed down the brakes
Never explaining my reasons for leaving
I disconnected me from you life without warning
Leaving you confused
I never answered truthfully when you asked me how I felt
My mind played tricks on me
Saying I was not mature enough
I've never been so wrong
Every day is filled with regret
If I had one wish, I would wish for it to go back to the way it was
I know that will never happen
You don't know how many times those small words made my heart soar
Ever since we were kids I've liked you more than friends
To when we were playing magic games add children
To the bus rides home together when we were older
I've hid it for that long
I'm sorry
Please give me one more chance
The silence between us was never awkward
It was always comforting
My mind tells me to forget
My heart tells me to chase
What do you think I should do?
What do you want me to do?
Your friends said that you've moved on
Your eyes are on another
My eyes never left you
Whenever I visit, I can feel the tension
I wish I wasn't so awkward
Because then
Maybe
Just maybe
I could explain
We could go back to joking around
We could start again
If I was to be blessed with another chance
I would not leave
I would stay
No matter how many people judged me
I wish I could tell you all of my thoughts
But instead I walk away once again
With my fake smile
You were the only one who could tell which ones were fake and which ones were real
I feel you stare on my back
I turn with tears in my eyes and stare into yours
I knew you felt the same way
Why am I so distant
Why am I so shy
All the nights we spent talking to each other through the phone till midnight
All the stupid shit we said to each other
The inside jokes we all had
The side glances we stole from each other
The cute smile that was always on your face when we talked
You always falling asleep at school
Me always trying to wake you
I promise you that once I find my courage I'll tell you all this
I turn my head and keep walking
I hear you laugh
I know you'll forget me
You've done it before
Please
Try to remember me this time
Because I'm always trying to tell you
But it won't matter if you don't remember
Don't worry though
Our paths will always be connected
Somehow
They will never separate completely
So as long as we don't forget
We will find a way to get back to each other
And that time
I won't let you go

____________________________________________________________Author's Note
I hope you all liked this small chapter of feels.
I hope I made you sad (I don't mean that in a bad way).
This one is just am idea that popped into my head while writing a main story but, it didn't for into any of other stories so...Hey Presto!
Anyways
Till next time
Outrageous Otter out!